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Gwendolyn (:

take me to the sky

12:21 PM As year 2008 is drawing to an end at 12 midnight, I looked back and reflected upon what a year it had been.

2008 has been a year of new experiences, travel, meeting new friends, knowing old friends and personal achievements. I am thankful that it had been a good and fruitful year.

• I managed to finish the 12 books promise that I made to myself and that means, I read 12 books in this year whereby I usually read less.
• I got my driving license that I toiled hard for because of all the rushing after school and rescheduling of certain tasks and officiating.
• I went to Thailand with classmates that I would never forget because they were the greatest bunch of people I met in my poly life.
• I went to Cameron Highlands with people that I have never met and at the end of the journey, we got to know more about one another.
• I suntanned at the begining of the year and the tan lines are still visible even till now.
• I went for my first ever concert held by Jeff Chang at the Max Pavilion.
• I went for a vertical marathon with Lian on the spur of the moment and did volunteer work at YMCA.
• I exercised more than I ever did ever since JC ended with the gym and walk around Kovan.
• I fell for Dumbo's silliness and wondered why I didn't realised it sooner.
• I went for a fine dining dinner on Jasmine's birthday and since that opportunity came up, we grabbed it.
• I went to the zoo and found out that it was a total different experience from when I went during my primary school days.
• I explored Chinatown and BooksActually on Children's Day.
• I went to the National Museum just because I want to and not because people asked me along.
• I met up with the dudes from JC and that was really something because I haven't met up with them for years.
  
• I drank, have rashes and continued with the drinking.
  
• We surprised a friend on her birthday on the 2nd last day of the year.
  

Perhaps 2009 will be better since I will graduate from NP in 2009. Another year of new experiences to look forward to with the same great bunch of girls from years before. I am thankful that I know them, have them and keep in constant touch with them.

12:00 AM

All cinemas should provide a blanket for their patrons instead of just providing them in Gold Class. Watched "Australia" today and the whole Gold Class was filled up with foreigners drinking wine and munching away. I was more comfy under the blanket and the cosy chair. Hugh Jackman is so hot even with all the facial hair. And then, there's Nicole Kidman who looks absolutely regal as Lady Sarah Ashley.

Rum = yum!
I'm feeling tired now so I guess sleep should come easy tonight.

12:52 PM It's nice catching up with a friend cum favourite on court partner yesterday. She skipped the beep test and bought us muffins. How nice! I will miss partnering her on court :(

I hope I can catch Twilight and YesMan before they are removed from the cinema. VOOM Portraits will be down soon too! Shucks..i need time!

3:33 AM Back from a post christmas gathering with the secondary school gang. It's been 10 years, 10 long years and we still keep in contact. How amazing is that? I kept drawing the number 10 during gift exchange and when I opened it, all I saw was Mickey. It seems to be mocking me...

Teach the heart not to hanker after the impossible.

There's a heaviness in my heart which I can't explain
A pounding in my heart that baffles me

11:02 PM Received a letter from school stating that I did not participate in both the NAPFA test organised for me and I was to take the compulsory test in January as an 'absent' reflected in my transcript will result in my prospective employers not viewing me favourably. Ok and that leaves me a few days to prepare for it! How overwhelming is it to receive scary news like this during the festive period.

On a better note, I get to drive the cousins out to Farm Mart this Christmas for some "fresh produce" and I parallel park twice with big, jerky motions. A clutch is greatly appreciated because I do not control the accelerator well enough to park like a pro. Daddy is horrible at giving instructions and acting as my "street directory". He either gives the instructions and expects me to do it immediately or give it to me too late and resulting in me having to brake damn hard in order to make a right turn. Still has the cheek to call me a reckless driver when all my recklessness was caused by his inability to give coherent instructions at appropriate timings. Oh well, I should seriously consider getting a GPS for my future car. I shall not even try to mention how I reversed my way out from the parallel parking lot and how I went to top up the petrol. Just imagine that no other car can get pass my car in the petrol station and you'll know. I'm not particularly happy about sharing my lanes hurhur..

Qian Hu Fish Farm was great! Lots of beautiful fishes and I resisted the urge to whip out the camera and to just take pictures. Sometimes, it's better to have wonderful memories of a place/person taken with all the senses instead of leaving only a visual memory. Memories created like this will be more lasting. I had fun with the little cousin and I hope he had fun with me too. The innocence of a kid can never be fabricated.

How ironic was it to hear a warning from my mum asking me not to drink during this festive period. It's either she's not very observant or I'm too good at hiding stuff from her. I'm allergic to alcohol, but at the same time, alcohol numbs the allergies. It is a balance, like how yin is to yang.

1:17 AM What is this pain? That is incapacitating me?

3:52 AM I drove and left wifey by the side of the road because I definately cannot get out from her carpark!!

The pain was so intense that I almost doubled over.
I held my breath and waited for the pain to be gone.
It didn't but it left a dull ache in me instead.
Is there any painkillers that I am not allergic to?
I can pop the whole bottle in one go.
And get rid of the mental anguish too.

The cut wasn't deep. I wished that it went deeper..

1:23 PM Met the dudes for an afternoon of boardgames at Settlers on Friday. Wanted to go to Mind's cafe at first but it was full of annoying students like us so we trekked in the hot sun to Settlers where there's less of a crowd. It was meant to be a quieter place for us to catch up but there was a band audition going on and it's just maddening. We were far from the crowds but noise can't seem to be avoided.

Saturday was spent gymming and meeting up with the girls. Town was way too crowded with so many familiar faces and we had people talking about us right in front of our faces! Next time, try doing it behind our backs so it ain't so obvious, bitches! The only person that I was glad to bump into was my favourite partner! It's been ages since I saw her and I probably embarrassed her in front of her friends but I don't care. When can we officiate together again?

It's probably karma..

The wound is dry and healing. So why does it hurt, itch and swell from time to time?

Hiding in the room
Blasting the music
Emotions imploding
Physical pain is welcomed

11:07 AM It seems like ages since I last blog because my days were so packed that the nights blurred into days.
Have been going back to school everyday since Tuesday for project and we were finally more or less done yesterday. Going back to school is good, I get to catch eye candy on the same bus as me. (But I caught eye candy at Douby Gaut MRT on Wednesday too before I met the girls.)
Met up with the girls on Wednesday for a little bit of Christmas cheer and I hope everyone had fun. Although some were busy and had to rush off for meetings and to catch some beauty sleep before flying off to Seoul, they still made it. One, even came with her chin all stitched up and bandaged in her rush to meet us. (I made that up!) Please take care of yourself my little nut and stop getting injuries on your face. Went to Timbre after dinner for some drinks and the walk there was filled up with photo takings. All pictures are uploaded on Facebook so if you want nice pictures, get it from there. Unglam ones are kept and will only be sent when requested.
It's back to school on Thursday but I left once I completed my part. It's Timbre again last night and I got all woozy after my shower. Fell asleep even before my hair was dry and I awoke with a mop on my head this morning and red blotches. Fuck the rashes! How am I going out to meet my dudes later with the red blotches? I'm so going to cover myself up from head to toe.

OHH...I saw Roslyn Lee the DJ yesterday at Timbre too! She's going to be at Zouk tonight for some event!!!

Beer = happiness (you can't stop smiling)
Beer = heighten senses (everything looks bigger and brighter)
Beer = sleep (sleep comes without you knowing it)
Beer = wooziness (limit is too shallow)
Beer = red blotches (fuck the allergies)
Beer = empty calories (imagine the beer belly)
Beer = beer (tears that doesn't come just wouldn't come even when you puke)

Teach the heart to give it up even though it left a gapping hole.

Time to delete all the messages since I don't know when.

I'm tired of hearing "are you ok", "cheer up" and stuff along this line.
I'm tired of answering "yea, I'm fine" and "ya! I'm ok, what makes you think I'm not?"
It's not because that I don't appreciate the concern, it's just that, that's all I can answer at the moment.
What else is expected of me?
A total and complete breakdown in front of everyone?

12:55 AM



The week ahead is packed with officiating, project meetings, project dateline and christmas gatherings with friends. I'm getting quite worried with the dateline on Friday because it seems to be so near suddenly and we haven't got anything done!
Who the hell has project datelines in the middle of the holidays? Who the hell said that the holidays are for us to take a break when every damn project is due when school reopens. Who the hell needs to do street interviews during holiday time and it's so near to Christmas. I'm already having the Christmas mood and I haven't had time to get my gifts yet. My favourite time of the year is ruined by all the work that has to be done. Arggg....
Oh well, I shall learn to plan my time properly and focus on what is on hand first. No slacking and no procrastinating this week!

I guess I'm too full to go to bed. Or was it the honey milk tea?

I don't want Shane to end up with Jenny!!!!

1:47 PM


11:19 PM My patience was stretched to the limit in the afternoon game and I gave up talking sense into the thick skull after 2 periods. Luckily, the nut was more patient than me in this but somehow, it turned out worse.

Should I go to Zouk on Thursday!?

I want to get " The Graveyard Book"by Neil Gaiman.

11:12 AM Was blog hopping when I chanced upon a few blogs with beautiful languages. Why do people write so beautifully with such great description and all I can managed is to make sure that I don't make any grammatical mistakes?

I'm going to get muffins on Tuesday!


I'm am powerless against you

3:33 PM Went to school for half an hour for project briefing and I saw my eye candy working in the canteen when I end! Oh god..how coincidental is that?

5:58 PM I'm super motivated to finish up all my e-learning tutorial by today but i found out that I can't because some of them have specific days for submission. So I shall rearrange my time to fit submission and do a little bit of studying in the meantime.
I can't make it for my live chat with the tutor tomorrow evening due to a party and he allows me to skip it altogether. Woohooo...

Listening to songs from Jay Chou new album. Emo-in along with him..

9:41 PM Since words cannot describe what I feel nowadays, I shall let the pictures do the talking. I ran out of words suddenly.
Pictures are not in order of occurance. They're as random as my thoughts now.