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Gwendolyn (:

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12:30 AM I guess the pictures speak for themselves. This is what I have been doing the past few days. Late nights, booze, cabs, eye bags, sun and perhaps an itchy butt surrounds me.

Labels: Days and nights of revelry and decadence

11:47 PM Skipped IB because I decided to get back at groupmates who skipped our presentation last week. It was a stupid move but it was nice getting school out of my system for a day. SITEX started and it's held at Singapore Expo and it reminds me of COMEX that seemed to have just ended. I feel like skipping school tomorrow too.

I guess i'm working on autopilot again. Report's not done and my words just doesn't flow. I just hope that I made enough sense to the tutor. Intend to hit the minimal but I've been stuck since 1 hour ago and I'm still staring at the first question. I'm still awake at 3am! Lasted longer than anyone and I haven't printed my report. Oh god! Time check..4am

My knee is hurting again. Ran too much?

I dropped my phone twice yesterday!! It now has 3 dents that is making my heart ache everytime I look at it. The kind lady that picked up my phone for me on the bus held it up by the little Mario and I nearly killed her for it. In the end, I managed a weak thanks and grab my phone back since I don't want to be seen as ungrateful. I bought a pouch for my phone...

I love my gals! Thankful that they are around. They tried to get my brains functioning again but it doesn't work.

9:13 AM I don't know why I am in school today. I'm still stuck in the rut...

10:13 PM

11:44 PM With the endorphins running through my body, I decided that I should snap out of focusing on my failures and concentrate on what I can do instead.
I'm good at crapping my way through presentations without knowing a shit that I'm talking. That's something good.
I drove again today! That's another fun thing. I spotted eye candy today. I had ice-cream. I hanged out with the guys and bully J. Our poster looked great. I'm still alive with a party to look forward too. I still smell of smoke although I bathe so many times. Yay! I'm snapping out of it.

4:13 PM I functioned on autopilot today and almost got knocked down by a car because I didn't look before I crossed the road. I'm fine when I'm around people but when am left alone, I sink to the bottom of the pit.

11:46 PM I wish that I can hide in my own little corner where I can let the pain engulfed me from inside out. Where I am safe and able to just be myself. To let down the fascade that is taking its toil on me. I'll burn in purgatory when I die so why am I feeling that I am living in hell right now?

11:37 PM Today's a day where every thing fits in perfectly into my schedule. Although I'm stretched super thin but I'm glad it turned out fine.
Shooting in the morning was a great choice because the weather was nice and the scenery just looked more beautiful with the nice weather as backdrop. Now I know how difficult it is to be an actor because they are all victims when they are shooting in the hot, blazing sun. We perspired so much till the photographer had to go half naked just to finish some shots. At least we have the car where we blast the air con while we travelled from place to place. Now, I just hope that the finished product is as good as I thought it would be.
The weather decides to turn nasty at around 4pm when I was still making my way down to Sengkang from SBC. At least I got money for doing nothing.
Jas came to my place and we slacked and had a go at the massage chair while she waited for the time to pass. Went for dinner and I psycho her to go to work late so I can drive her down instead. Got the car at night and I drove Jas and my bro all the way to Zouk and back without a hitch. I had to do a little parking and a whole table full of uncles were staring at me while I parked. It was hilarious because my parking was so bad and I didn't dare to step out of the car. Except for the parking, I did all right and it was the first time I drove without supervision!
Ok Jasmine Teo, you are the first person to sit in my car without any supervision while I drove. You can laugh at my parking skills but you are still the first person to step out of my car alive when I let you out at Zouk. Be honoured!

It was the first time I did so much
Thought so much
Planned so much
It would have been perfect if everything went according to plan
But perfection doesn't exist

6:37 PM No tutorial tomorrow morning! Yes! Yes! Yes! That means I do not have to turn up in school till it's time to meet the Citibank people.

I'm watching so much advertisement online that I'm going cross-eyed. Why does Singapore not allow all the interesting advertisements to go on air here? It just stifles the creativity here and most ads look alike. There's just too much restriction going on here. I shall not comment any further.

5:03 PM Tuesdays are sucky! Wanted to skip tutorial today because I couldn't drag myself out of bed. In the end, I woke up at 7am thinking that I shouldn't waste my "allowance" in skipping tutorial when it's not nearing dates of submission. Arrived in school to know that tutorial was cancelled!!!! I could have slept more and skip lecture even! A total waste of time to go school today.
On the other hand, I managed to see my eye candy, so it made up for the sucky morning. It's a wonder why we always meet on Tuesday :)
Lunch at alumni and I saw an old friend. He dumbly called me when I was just standing right in front of him and continued talking on the phone with me. He must be too used to using the phone to chat and the laptop too. Taking up space at our food joint is so evil.

I need to be more aware about print advertisements and TVC and not just view them as time wasters or toilet breaks whenever I watch tv programs (provided that I do watch them). I need to come up with nice concepts and be totally creative because MCOM DEMANDS it and it's totally not in me. I need to stop viewing advertisement as advertisement but instead view them as great works of art. I need to be on top of my work and stop playing catch ups in school. I need to be more receptive to ideas. Sex sells. So does humour.

8 Days this week has a Bugis Junction Festive Guide and the photos in it are great.

Completed my 12th book of the year in half an hour. It was a short read and the book wasn't even mine, borrowed it from LC and managed to finish it while waiting for the rest to finish lunch. Yay! Hit the target for the year and it's not even December yet. Woohoo..I rock!

Events that I am interested in:

• New Perspectives of Landscape - till 30 Nov at Vivocity
• VOOM Portraits - till 4 Jan at National Museum of Singapore
• CATS - 10 April-3 May 2009 at Esplanade

Labels: 12th book of the year

11:02 PM I had Mac for breakfast today! Went to school early to discuss stuff for presentation during tutorial and found out that we met early for nothing. Tutor went through the stuff with us without needing us to present and tutorial was crap. Breakfast made the day though because everything seems bleaker as the hours went by. I forgot about my lunch appointment with a friend and now I must think of a way to make it up to him.

Finally remembered my friends birthday for this month and managed to wish Claire a happy birthday before it's too late. Hah! She still loves me.

Baby's little sister arrived at 5 plus in the morning and I think she's going to be super cute.

I missed Avenue Q! It's gone before I know it.

I want to get Neil Humphrey's new book! Rui En's new album is coming out on 20 November! She's also on the cover of 8 days and I bought it just because of her...

8:24 PM Tuesdays are eye candy days!

I fell sick on my favourite day and went to the doc. The last time I visited him was in 2002 and 6 years passed just like that.
Took the medicine and fell into a fitful sleep. I was trying hard to sleep but there were moments of awakeness which I can't explain. I slept and watched TV both at the same time and decided that I had enough of that rubbish. Woke up, read, watch TV, had dinner and I'm now stuck in front of the computer doing up my presentation for tomorrow. I have MC for tomorrow but I guess I wouldn't be utilizing it.
I ate and I'm hungry again and yet my appetite is so limited.

11:27 PM School is a gastronomic feast as we went to different places for lunch everyday. It helps when friends have cars and we drive out of school in search of food that are not available in our pathetic canteen. Sat in Will's Nissan today after our MacDonald's lunch. I practically slept through lecture after the 6th slide and woke up just as he ends the lecture.

Teach the heart not to tussle with the brains.

12:32 AM Another day with my favourite numbers. Shall update when my brains are functioning at a more awake level.

It's been more than 24 hours...

3:50 PM This date has a combination of my favourite numbers so it warrants a post. As for what, I have no idea so I should talk about Just. He drives a BMW and thinks that I'm 12. I think he's just being mean and sarcastic but he really thinks that I'm 18. He eats a lot and drives dangerously since he couldn't keep to a lane. He dropped me and Kai at Bishan after our project discussion and lunch. I'm bored!

Laogong came down to support me today although she hasn't slept a wink since 34 hours ago. She's going to turn into a panda soon and I appreciated the support :)

3:58 AM






2:45 PM Twen has lost all her memories and is now waiting to be infused with new memories. Just reformatted her yesterday in school and I spent 4 bloody hours in that cold room waiting for her to reclaim some of her memories. I bitch like hell to Kai and I'm glad he came and accompany for a while after his project discussion. With the lost of her old memories, she is now functioning faster and hopefully better than before. I'm getting her up and running by downloading programs that she had from before and she will soon regain all her memories.

My havaianas broke yesterday just as I stepped into the house. I'm lucky that it didn't break anytime before that if not I will have a hard time dragging Twen and myself home. I got no more slippers to wear!!

I love Wednesday because it's the middle of the week and it signifies that 2 days had past and I only had 2 more days of the week to go. Lots of work to be done and my concept for an ad is still not out! A chance encounter on the train brought back memories from my secondary school days and perhaps an old friend.

Congrats to Barack Obama for winning John McCain!

Life is never fair, just like the different length of our fingers. You'll get the long and short of it all. Something in S's blog touches a raw nerve, very raw. Even the initials are the same.

Teach the heart not to hurt.


9:07 PM Good food for the past two days. Sakae Sushi on Monday and Pizza Hut today. No wonder I always put on weight when school starts.

Monday - OFS
Tuesday - Project
Wednesday - reformat laptop, go SIS
Thursday - go RI
Saturday - go SBC
Sunday - National Museum

At least I have Friday free.

As I hobbled and limped around the house, my stubbornness never fails to amaze me. Give it another week.

I'm craving for milk right now..

I miss your face.

9:52 PM I'm falling apart..falling sick...collapsing.


Teach the heart not to be fooled.

11:35 PM Spent the day at home and the parents were happy. Not as if they voiced it out but I can see it from them. Especially mama..because she was planning where to go with me. In the end, the rain spoilt everything and I went for a nap instead.

Had a little joy drive at night and my turning sucks. Where did that smooth driver go? My aunt said that it's because I lack practice. Oh well...

Now I am trying to convince a guy about my age and he doesn't believe me. He said I looked 18/19. Haha that's something to be happy about.