Name
Gwendolyn (:

take me to the sky

11:52 PM Oh man, someone just asked to "watch some romantic movies. Have a chat at some beach and
after that we can watch sunset at mount faber". Does that sound like class outing material at all?

I'm extremely tired of my life right now. I'm tired of waiting, tired of rushing and basically tired of everything. I'm tired of trying to make you understand.


Teach the heart not to pine.

12:46 AM I spent Deepavali driving my parents around town to get stuff to cook for dinner. The best thing is, I missed the dinner that I'm suppose to have. I know how to get from my place to Aljunied and Somerset!

Felt really inadequate in the game. I was more concerned about protecting my leg than concentrating on the game. Lots of fouls were missed and I took too long to get used to my partner's calls. Damn leg!

Teach the heart not to envy.

2:45 PM

12:49 AM I think by the end of the week, I will be so bored of the court at UWC and the wonderful smell there. Weekends will be spend at SBC and I'm having a headache looking for people. My room is full of this week's newspaper because I haven't been reading them. I'll be reading "old news" during the weekends.

Can someone please talk me out of my stupid obsession? I'm getting tired.

Teach the heart not to worry.

11:51 PM I was on the same bus as my eye candy today! I even spotted eye candy among the throngs of student coming to school. Oh my, if school has more eye candies, it would just be perfect. Tuesday is turning into a nightmare and I missed the people from the previous semester. School was definitely more exciting and interesting then. It's a tiring week!

12:31 AM "One Step At A Time"

Hurry up and wait
So close, but so far away
Everything that you've always dreamed of
Close enough for you to taste
But you just can't touch

You wanna show the world, but no one knows your name yet
Wonder when and where and how you're gonna make it
You know you can if you get the chance
In your face as the door keeps slamming
Now you're feeling more and more frustrated
And you're getting all kind of impatient waiting

[Chorus:]
We live and we learn to take
One step at a time
There's no need to rush
It's like learning to fly
Or falling in love
It's gonna happen and it's
Supposed to happen and we
Find the reasons why
One step at a time

You believe and you doubt
You're confused, you got it all figured out
Everything that you always wished for
Could be yours, should be yours, would be yours
If they only knew

You wanna show the world, but no one knows your name yet
Wonder when and where and how you're gonna make it
You know you can if you get the chance
In your face as the door keeps slamming
Now you're feeling more and more frustrated
And you're getting all kind of impatient waiting

[Chorus]

When you can't wait any longer
But there's no end in sight
when you need to find the strength
It's your faith that makes you stronger
The only way you get there
Is one step at a time

When You Look Me In The Eyes :
If the heart is always searching,
Can you ever find a home?
I've been looking for that someone,
I'll never make it on my own.
Dreams can't take the place of loving you,
There's gotta be a million reasons why it's true

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.

How long will I be waiting,
To be with you again
Gonna tell you that I love you,
In the best way that I can.
I can't take a day without you here,
You're the light that makes my darkness disappear.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.

More and more, I start to realize,
I can reach my tomorrow,
I can hold my head high,
And it's all because you're by my side.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When I hold you in my arms
I know that it's forever
I just gotta let you know
I never wanna let you go

Cause when you look me in the eyes.

And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.
Oh

Teach the heart not to flutter so.


12:36 AM Gym in the morning and now my triceps hurt. Oh well, it will be firm and not flabby in time to come. It was the first time that I actually ran in the gym and I was all light-headed after the run. Didn't really do as much as I would like because of the run and I guess, I really hate running. I shall learn to like it and will start it slowly and train up my non-existent stamina. Just give me some time. I'm worried about the strained left leg, it's taking a bit too long to heal.

Went to the National Museum in the afternoon for the photography exhibition and this is what we saw. Nice pictures taken by well known photographers and their interpretation. I prefer the "Heresies" better in comparison to "Doubleness". I'm now waiting for "VOOM PORTRAITS" by Robert Wilson so that I can view Brad Pitt's half naked body then. Hurhur..those ladies were so excited when I agreed that I wanted to see the photo on Brad. Oh please, I was just humouring your bored, bimbotic lives. Who cares for that little white boxer?








After reading the lyrics from Nicky Lee's album, I find that certain songs really reflect how I feel..

Teach the heart not to yearn.

11:35 PM Pictures from the last week of the holidays..

I saw my eye candy twice today, once in the morning and once when I was going for my last lecture. I wish Jacq was around to share the joy of spotting eye candy hur hur..
My triceps still hurt from gym on Wednesday, but it's a nice pain. I'm a sadist. I shall motivate myself to exercise more.

It's the first time I drove on the expressway today! Long time never drive and I got a bit nervous at the start.

Museum trip on Sunday! Looking forward to it and I'm actually looking through the website to see what we can fit in on Sunday. I'm never a planner.

I'm listening to Nicky's album and I think it's nice.

Teach the heart not to miss.

11:33 PM School's back to normal from tomorrow onwards and I hope to catch more glimpse of my eye candy each day.

I was stuck in a car for 2 fucking hours because we were caught in a jam. The result was me being late for a game at SBC and it sucks. I can't help but thank my lucky star because someone was there to help out till I arrived. It was a bad day..and bad news travel fast.

The facade is fading.
The teasing has gone a bit too far.
The fuse is getting shorter.
The game has gone on for too long.
The people are still the same.


Teach the heart not to care and feel anymore.



11:59 PM First day back in school and I had no notes so I stared at the lecturer and read my 8 Days and waited for time to pass. Went shopping with the mother after lesson before heading somewhere else for some other stuff to do.

I finished "Marley and Me"(the book) and I saw the trailers for the movie to be out sometime soon. Jennifer Aniston and Owen Wilson are starring in it and I'm so excited because the movie is going to bring my imagination to life. The way the author describes the loopy dog is adorable and I love the way he describes Marley when he is coming towards the end of his life. It was sad and yet poignant. I can't decide which book to start on now since I just finished a good book. I want a book that is nice enough to carry on the magic of what "Marley and Me" has left so I shall pick a book slowly.

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10:49 PM As I stared at my timetable, it looks really different from the one I selected. Oh well, I shall make do with whatever that is given and do my best in my last semester in school!

3:00 AM When I looked back upon today, I'll probably laugh my head off at what a stammering fool I was. Another conquest..

I guess I really need to get some sleeping pills from the doctor to aid me through the night, to stop the brains from functioning at odd hours when it's supposed to be resting. To give the body a well deserved rest. I need to see a doctor for my limited range of activity for my left leg too. I can't extend it fully nor let it stay in the same position for too long. I need to see a doctor for my irregular heart palpitations, incessant perspiration and hot cheeks. It's either humiliation, menopause or some hidden illness that I have. I have so many sickness that I'm afraid that the doctor might ask me to kill myself to save on my medical bills, but euthanasia is still not allowed if I'm not wrong. The moral ethics of it all.. If we were not given the right to choose when we were to be born, why would we be given the right to choose when we want to die? And then this topic can lead to the topic of abortion, should we be pro-life or pro-choice? And soon, an essay can come out of it all. To think that I am interested to engage in writing an essay at 4am in the morning shows how active my damn brain is. The brain never seems to be this active when it was during the school term so why is it tormenting me now when my bluey bed looks so inviting and I'm giving it lusty glances? I hate the feeling of lying in bed, tossing and turning and I still couldn't fall asleep.
With much digression, I lost the points that can make up the paragraphs of my essay and I don't wish to think too much in case my brains become all active again. Maybe the doctor can give me some magic pills to stop my heart from pounding so much, so much so that I feel, my heart is trying to escape from my ribcage. Rip it out and may I rest in peace forever.

12:24 AM




11:06 PM Happy Children's Day!

I saw my little sweetheart in the morning while I was on my way to catch the bus. She called out to me and gave me a goodbye kiss on the lips! On the lips, not the cheeks k!

Had a hearty brunch at Swensens with Ms S and we went to Books Actually. It was a nice little place with stuff that reminds me of when I was little. Very different from Borders and Kino where it was more commercial. After that, we spent some time exploring Chinatown and I took some pictures since I brought the camera out. I felt like a tourist and it was the first time that I took time to explore Chinatown. Maybe next time, more time could be spent exploring Singapore, Little India perhaps?

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