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Gwendolyn (:

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1:17 AM I missed the chance to see idol play today due to the meeting. Still feeling sore about it when i realised that i forgot to watch my show with Rui En and Bryan Wong. Can't officiate Women Open tomorrow due to a clash in schedule and i will be rushing from place to place if i do.
Baby has not yet arrived and i won't be home to welcome it if it comes tomorrow or Friday or Saturday or Sunday or Monday. I better warn the mother or the brother to receive it with open arms if it comes when i am not at home.
Finished my law tutorial and i have to go draft an email later on. It's now 2.55am and i can't get to sleep. Suffering from insomnia and aching shoulder leaves me feeling a bit depressed and there is no one available for me to rant to. I'm going to be buried under all the work that i am suppose to do yet my support system is not around. Anyhow, the support system will be back on Thursday and i'll be happier on Friday. If only i can get down to assigning the task that needs to be done. I can't seem to function without my support system.

11:51 PM I am raving mad. Projects' draft, interim reports and post interim reports are due next week and i am still accepting assignments for this weekend and next week. Common test coming up too and i have not touched my books at all. Not forgetting project meetings, TC meeting and a Referee Clinic meeting in between all these. How mad can i be when i can spend time watching idol play again tonight?

11:20 PM Yes! I repaid all my debts today and it felt great. Paid for the shoes and DS Lite so I am happily awaiting the arrival of my new baby. Didn't do tutorials at all this weekend and I'm feeling so guilty. Shit la..i'm getting complacent.

Aching shoulder due to the lift accident. Shall not elaborate but left shoulder is aching. A dull, numb and sore pain.

Went to see idol play! It's worth every minute to be there. At least idol played more today. I should learn to calm down and just watch the game. Everytime she's on court, i don't see anything else except for her.

2:00 PM And so, i finally decide to transfer the money for my order of DS Lite by today. Ordered it on Friday using PZ's laptop and only decide to pay for it today so i actually took 2 days to consider. Oh well, i shall just pay for it first before i change my mind again.
The brother wants a Creative Zen Stone Plus and i am thinking of getting it for him. But then again, he had 2 MP3 players before this and he spoilt both of them so i seriously wonder if it is worth getting it for him. Still owe people money for that pair of black shoes and truth be told, my expenses are more than revenue for this month. I should start keeping taps on my income and expenses for the upcoming months because, Christmas is coming! I love Christmas and i don't really know why.

I am super lazy, not doing tutorials, not uploading pictures, not reading my notes, not reading the papers, not doing anything productive and not eating breakfast and lunch. I am so going to lose weight by not eating, you think. NONONO! It's a wrong concept. You'll actually gain more weight if you try to lose weight by not eating and you can't eat normally for the rest of your life for fear of putting it all back. Arg..i can't stand being at home today and i don't know why. Just looking forward to the games tonight and going shopping with Grace.

9:47 PM Went to school today and felt so lost. This project seems to be not working and no one's worried yet. Oh well, we can just fake something out if there's a need be.
Went to TPY with PZ after school. Bought donuts from Donut Point and they look as nice as they taste. Bought some home for the family too. Shall upload the pictures when i have the time.

11:16 PM Presented FMGT today and it's a major burden off our shoulders. CMA test was done too so that's another load off. All we have to do now is to focus on HRM, BLAW, ECD and Event management projects. If that's not enough to kill us, the common test is creeping up in 2 weeks time. I wish i can watch Women's Open all day long and not worry about anything.

I must have been mad. I read all your post in 2 hours and wonder how we have drifted so far apart. How much can things change in 2 years? A whole lot..

1:28 AM The Aries Ox
Aries Oxen are goal-oriented and attain success by persevering. They charge through life and do not let opposition slow them down. In love they are not subtle and like to be the dominant figure in the relationship. Only a strong, trustworthy partner will make this a lasting partnership.

Ok i changed my blogskin because i was bored with the previous one and it didn't came with the archives thingy. Didn't realised that till yesterday and that was why i changed it. Tidied it up too and deleted some blogs that have been idle for some time. It looks less messy now.
Been feeling so tired lately even with the hours i slept. Skipped school on Monday because i was feeling a bit under the weather and i slept the whole day away even though i was suppose to study for a test. Came home today and continued sleeping and I nearly missed the bus stop this morning again. It's been happening too often and i'm worried that i would wake up in some foreign land one day. Didn't study again today so i'm going to flunk the test tomorrow yet i am at peace. To hell with tests.

2:20 AM


12:43 AM Panda eyes and eye bags are plaguing me these days. 6 hours of sleep in 48 hours or more is not enough seriously..i need sleep and lots of it.
Legs are starting to feel like jelly and i should really rest more.

Decision made-not to officiate for the rest of next week!

Was at ACS this morning and my lazy bones decided not to wake up till 8am thus i have to cab down to ACS and waste money. Was at SBC for the rest of the day and i managed to catch idol playing. Even if it was for just 5 minutes, it was enough.


2:24 AM Just came back not long ago and it's now 2.30am. Went to SPH to attend a party with my friend and i seriously don't understand how people can be so fanatic. That guy is not even handsome in real life and only looks good in photos because all the photos have been photoshop to look perfect. Was a bit disappointed to find him looking less than stellar but it was a new experience anyway and i always love new experiences. Found new places where there is good food and I found Botak Jones new shop. Don't think many people know about it but the food that they sell there looks good.
Watched "Stardust" finally, and i think it was great. Witches, princes, love, magic and happily ever after. What a fairy tale. But too bad, i don't believe in fairy tales although i do daydream sometimes.
Shall finish up my 200 words worth of learning points fast and go to bed. ACS beckons me at 9am and i'm now afraid i can't get up.
Choices, choices ,choices..what can't i have everything?

Oh i forgot to mention this. I dropped my phone just now while replying a message and it looks like shit now. My heart aches for my phone and longs to change it but my plan's not up yet and it is going to be troublesome to use my bro's plan to change a phone for me. So what should i do now? Get a phone without a line or make do with my scarred phone?

Oh no..the question was popped. Why must questions like this exists? I don't know how to answer and i can't answer so i shall just avoid till further notice. Why can't a guy and a girl have just a platonic relationship? Complicated world!

4:50 PM It's hard to drag myself out of bed at 6 in the morning when i fell asleep just 4 hours ago. Was hysterical because i woke up at 6.45am when I am suppose to leave my house at 7am in order to reach SBC before 8am. Luckily, my partner called me and said that he would be picking me up at my house bus stop on his way down to SBC so that leaves me time to drag a wee bit.
Received a SMS from some random person saying "congratulations..." and I couldn't see the rest. Wanted to ignore it till I realised that I helped my friend to enter some contest so that she could meet her idol so I decided to reply to the SMS. In the end, I really won a pair of tickets to the event that she wanted to go so much. So I shall be nice and accompany her down later. Watching "Stardust" tonight but it's a late show and I got to wake up way early for officiating again tomorrow morning. Weekends are too packed for my liking but at least, tutorials are completed and project almost done. I shall do whatever that is left of the project tomorrow and hope for the best. Test on Wednesday and presentation too. Maybe I shall skipped lesson on Monday and Tuesday to study but then again, discussion for presentation will most likely happen on either days so it will be best if I am in school. Oh well, what will come will come and I shall move according to the tide.
Meeting Jas on Monday for "Lust, Caution"! Can't wait to watch it and of course, the widely talk about scenes in the show. Rejected AIS for uncountable times even though ZM kept asking me to rush down for it. I can't, since the game starts at 4 plus and I will only end classes at 4pm, so I recommended Ms Wong YX to him. Haha..hope she can make it and earn some cash in the process.

11:30 PM

12:14 AM The moment of truth is here. I lost 1kg and did not hit my target but i shall work harder to lose it all.

Today was a day full of surprises. Firstly, PZ and Nicholas were in school for lecture and we presented our ECD project in less than 10 minutes. Discussed FMGT and it was fruitful so i hope that everything can be done by Sunday because we need to submit it on Monday and present it next Wednesday. Not forgetting the dreaded CMA test next Wednesday at an ungodly hour after school where all brain cells are dead. I must stay positive and i'm sure i can do it. If only i don't have to go for the FIBA meeting on Thursday, not refereeing on Saturday and Sunday, i might have more time for school work. I should really stop officiating from next week onwards.
Was at OFS before rushing down to CCAB and was 2 minutes late. Ran up the stupid slope because the track was close but luckily today was the ladies game on my court. Saw idol and i guess that was the highlight of the night and we shook hands after the game. OMG! That's like the highlight of the highlight! Ok..i'm not making any sense here but it was just high.
Wanted to walk to the bus stop with the nut but we meet a very nice female, Indian security guard and her passenger. She was driving the buggy and i asked if she can give us a ride down the slope and she was like "Ok! Hope on quickly before i change my mind". So the nut and i got a free backward view ride to the entrance with nice music and wind blowing in our face. Ate at TPY before i came back to settle work from school. I was lucky that i completed my tutorials during the study session with the nut last Saturday or else i would be in a worse state than i am now. I'm blessed with brains and planning skills hahaha..

By pushing myself harder this semester, i hope i come out a better person with a balanced perspective. It had been great thus far and i hope that with even more work piling on, i will still remain positive and balanced throughout. I just need to stay healthy but i feel the sickness creeping on to me.

It was so sweet of PZ to ask me if i have lunch mates tomorrow. So touched when i realised what she meant.
No school on Friday means i have a free day to finish up my project and tutorials. Push on and work hard Gwen!

11:42 PM Woke up late this morning and had to trouble the nut to pick me up to go SBC together. Played basketball with the youth team on an empty stomach and aching arms. Now I'm aching all over again and i wonder when will it go away? Studied at Mac after lunch and i think we stayed there for 5 hours mugging hard and doing productive stuff. It was nice to have a free Saturday just to sit down and finish my work

12:37 AM This old bag of bones sustained lots of injuries this week without knowing how i got them injured. It might be due to the lack of sleep as sleeping at 3 in the morning and waking up 3 and a half hours later leaves me on an adrenalin rush and i just can't seem to focus on what was on hand.

All was well as the week is coming to an end but weekends are as packed as usual. Have to reject doing statistic duty at SIS this Sunday because i got my Sunday all planned and the sms came way too late. Was too lazy to change my plans just to earn some additional income so i decided to stick with whatever i planned. A girl has to learn to relax sometime and money can't never be enough so i shall make do with whatever i have this week. Rejected Tuesday's game too, so i managed to learn how to reject stuff nowadays or should i say, this month.

Thursday was spent celebrating my day off from school, not that i celebrate Deepavali but it was a good day out with family and friends and basketball. I guess i lost my passion for it and it was sad to lose something you hold so dear for so long. Oh man, I'm feeling so emotional right now! Oh well, i shall find my passion in something else and it might probably mend my broken heart. Came back and decided to be heroic and started lifting weights and doing crunches yesterday. Now, I'm aching like hell and can't lift my arms properly. Whatever lifting of arms during officiating at SBC just now, was a huge battle between the brains and the arms. This in turn leads to slower calls or no calls at all. Invitation to play basketball on a Saturday morning at SBC was accepted with great reluctance because, just because, the heart is not there anymore or due to my aching body?

I seem to be attracting the wrong kind of people. Do i give off the wrong vibe or was i just too friendly? I don't need all this right now and I'm happy where i am, so kiss my ass people! Shoo..and never come back!

1:07 PM

11:42 PM I'm super duper tired! Just came back not long ago from SBC and today's game was good. The women team played well, at least better than last Monday. Calves are aching due to the vigorous short sprints up and down the court. It's really different officiating the National team. They can run faster and better than the other female teams around and it was a good workout for me. I feel that i am actually running more than i ever did so it's great for losing weight and as yuan yuan says, it's time to release the toxic in the body. I'll be down at SBC this Friday and next so i guess i wouldn't be officiating other matches in between. Cancelled tomorrow's game at the Australian school due to project meeting and i hope it better be fruitful if not my heart will break due to cash flying away haha.

11:24 PM I'm tired and yet i can't help it but to be online to do some work in order to compensate my shopping trip today. Woke up early even though i slept quite late last night. Accompanied the mother to the market for some marketing and photocopied my text for tutorial tomorrow. Met Yuan and we went shopping with the brother. Bought some stuff at cheap prices and we all felt so satisfied today. Headed down to SIS after the shopping trip and Slingers finally won Wildcats after the overtime. Was bored doing visual aid and Yuan was sitting so far away from me leaving me totally bored and restless. So I'm now here, supposedly finishing up my work.
Have to start arranging and planning my time for next week because i realised that i can't say "no" to cash that's coming my way, so i have to learn how to balance school, work and play. I shall be responsible for my learning and living and do whatever i can to balance out my life even if it mean sacrificing some sleep at the moment. And yes, that means no skipping of school as i see no reason to, at this point of time.

I've added the NDSL into my shopping cart and all i need to do is to check it out and it's going to be shipped over to my house. If only i can just click on the "check out" button. If only..

12:07 PM Sleeping at 4am in the morning and waking up at 11.30am leaves me feeling a little disorientated but there's still work to be done before i head down to UWC later. I'm dreading the long journey ahead :(

8:10 PM I was bored with my hair and so i dyed it copper brown on Sunday but it wasn't obvious because when i told my friends, they didn't even realise till i said it. Went to trim it today so hopefully i wouldn't be bored with it till the next time i need a hair cut.

I wish i have all the time and resources to read all the publications available but i don't. BLAW is difficult to answer because i have to use the LAC format which i cannot comprehend and am too lazy to follow it right through. I need a drink..something to clear my mind.

Dislike bringing Twen to school because she's just so heavy but somehow, this semester requires me to bring her to school more often than i would like.
Baby is sick, still sick and she slimmed down so much that she no longer looks like a ball. She has a figure now and i'm so jealous! I hope she'll recover soon so that she can come over and i can play with her everyday.