Name
Gwendolyn (:

take me to the sky

9:30 AM I found my motivation on Facebook. Oh my, i don't know what to do. Should i or should i not?

12:33 PM Tiring day..the weather was nice and chilly this morning and i almost didn't want to come to work. Nothing much for me to do at the moment so i shall just slack and wait for lunch to arrive.

1:32 PM I need time, more time to do the things that i want to do, learn the things i want to learn,watch the shows i want to watch, read the books/magazines i want to read, buy the things that i want to buy, exercise the way i want to exercise, earn the money that i need to earn. 24 hours a day is not enough, can i have 48 hours, including sleeping time? I am so greedy but i seriously need the time and i don't want to be sleepy during work because i spent my time doing other stuff when I'm suppose to be sleeping. I wish i don't need 6 hours of sleep daily. Maybe 2 hours is enough?

I want to get Zhang Hui Mei's new album.
I want to get the Korean compilation disc.
I want to go for my jacuzzi and steam bath.
I want to change my phone.
I want to cycle.
I want to rollar blade.
I want to tan.
I want to go Sentosa.
I want to go overseas and see the world.
I want to learn how to dive.
I want to love bball all over again.
I want to get Grey Anatomy's DVDs.

I'm loving all the muscle ache right now. It means that i ran during officiating yesterday and i also realised how unfit i am. Totally lost it in the last quarter. I need to start running or something.
Went to CCK to pray just now with the mother. Just realised that my grandfather passed away in 2002. That was like 5 years ago and i was still in SR.



Moved out of the cosy room into the world of freedom and that means i lost my motivation to go to work.
I'm thankful that you stick around even though i give you shit sometimes. I feel like a bitch but this is what i am willing to give right now.

11:03 AM Sitting in the office, reading the papers, listening to my MP3, blogging and chatting in front of my boss currently. Finished my work so i can slack. Oh well, it's the weekends anyway. 2 more hours and i'm free to go. Stats next week at the indoor stadium, can't see Baby :(

12:26 PM Felt the tremors yesterday morning and it was the biggest one i think. The pots hanging in the kitchen was swinging around and making so much noise that i grabbed my bag and ran out of the house. Super scary as i was alone at home in the morning.
Blogging now in the office because i'm bored and lazy to call anyone. It's almost time for lunch anyway..

8:32 PM

• Came back and played with Baby.
• I end early on Wednesdays and it's the only day where i can get to see Baby and play with her.
• Busy day trying to finish everything.
• Felt the gigantic earthquake and the whole block was shaking.
• Went downstairs with the neighbours because we're all so scared that our building will collaspe.
• Satisfied my craving for ice-cream and the father paid for it.
• Had dinner and now i'm here.
• Refusing to write coherently because i can't think coherently.
• Dreading all the calls i have to make and the numbers that doesn't tally.
• Hating how i'm treated like the newspaper cutter by the big boss and seeing her putting newspaper on my desk.
• I do have other work to do and you're helping me by adding it up.
• Dislike the cold room and crave for warmth.
• Looking forward to Friday because i'll be meeting the girls again and i double booked myself :(
• Officiating on Saturday and i'll get to exercise for a bit.
• Relax on Sunday at my aunt's place with the girls.
• That's about it.

Listening to Jay's-Secret

12:56 AM Been feeling a little under the weather this week.
Don't know what's wrong but i suspect it's the time of the month again.
Back's aching again just because i grabbed my chair this morning, when will it ever be fine again?
I can't do much except to rest more and get fatter.
Dinner with the girls was great last night and i took coffee again after don't know how many years. The last time that i took coffee was during JC 2 years where i needed it to survive.
Incoherent thoughts, wierd syntax and bad english.
I'm reduced to this now.
Nothing to look forward to.
Emptiness fills me.
I need to pick myself up.

9:18 PM Baby stayed overnight on Friday!! It was nice to wake up and see Baby's face in the morning with the blur look and messy hair on Saturday morning and i was the first one to wake up. Watched DVD the whole day with Baby before i went shopping with the mother and i can't believe that i spent hundred over dollars in that few hours in a neighbourhood mall. Sunday was spent with the parents because somebody decides to fly my aeroplane and i had gotten smarter after all these years.

Today was a blur because i can't keep my eyes open and i kept nodding off to dreamland. Boss was sitting right in front of me but i just can't help it when there's really nothing for me to do. Decided to cut the papers again after nodding off for the hundredth time before Boss asked me to make some changes to her agreement papers. Went back to the papers after that before getting some work passed to me. Shall continue with it tomorrow morning since i should have time for it. It's cold tonight and i shall have a good sleep. Tired..