Name
Gwendolyn (:

take me to the sky

9:58 PM Friday was the end of the exams and we went to Venezia for ice-cream immediately after the paper. Had Island Creamery on Saturday after watching the basketball games at ACS and that's 2 consecutive days of ice-cream. I'm putting on lots of weight especially now, since i'm working.

Work was rather mundane especially during times where there's nothing for me to do and i'm reduced to a stoning idiot on the first 2 days. It's been better and i get to help out at CS today but i was rather stressed. I seemed to be the only one slacking away reading and cutting my papers when everyone else were busy. Think the manager (i'm not familiar with the people at CS) for that department came to ask me what i was doing but i'm working for the marketing side so she can do nothing to me. I was supposed to help out at CS but i felt more of a burden then a helping hand since i'm not familiar with that department and they have to teach me or help me along. So i should just stay in my own department in that cosy room with the familiar people and a familiar job. Boss wanted me to do something more but i'm afraid that i'll screw it up. She seems to sense that, and said that i have to build up my confidence and i'm allowed to close deals if i can. Wow..big expectations and i hope i can fulfill them. Don't want to screw it up and let her or anyone else clean up my mess. Oh lord, i pray that i'm stronger than this.

Due to the sedentary lifestyle that i'm leading right now, i took extra care to warm up yesterday before i start officiating. The big irony is that, i strained my back muscles while i stretch. Like WTH? So now i'm aching, can't sit for long nor can i stand for long just because i took care to stretch. If i knew this was going to be the case, i rather not stretch and say that it's just muscle ache because i haven't been exercising. I need to lie down and whine about how unlucky i was yesterday. Forgot to bring my staff pass in the morning and had to use the visitor pass. Forgot my phone after work and only realised that when i'm in the MRT station. Ran out of the station and wasted my money because i went in and came out at the same station without taking the train at all. Went back to the office and got the scare of my life because the door was closed, found that it's not lock and collected my phone from underneath my desk. Skipped dinner and bought biscuits, reached the court before 7pm and the game was walkovered. If only i knew it earlier, i could have a good dinner to make up my day. Luckily the game went on all right and i had an ice-cream after that.

It's amazing how my feet stopped hurting after the 4th day.
It's amazing how happy i was just to go get coffee.
It's amazing how your laughter sounds like music to my ears.
It's amazing how i dumped everything just because you asked whether i'm free.
It's amazing how i remembered your order and it's the only one i did.
It's amazing how much happiness one can get in 21 days.
It's amazing how much it hurts after that.
It's amazing how wonderful it is to clear things up.
It's amazing how i can't get you out of my mind.
It's amazing how i'm able to laugh, cry and whine after all that.
It's amazing how i'm able to survive all that alone.
It's amazing how i strain my back due to a stretch.
It's amazing how i have so much to say.
It's amazing how i'm tongue-tied when you're around.
It's amazing how i'm not crazy yet.
It's amazing how alone i am even when surrounded with friends.
It's amazing how i picked up the phone and know no one to call.
It's amazing how happy i was to receive your message even though it was late.
It's amazing how much i miss Baby.
It's amazing how much stuff i want to get.
It's amazing how much i crave to shop.
It's amazing how invisible i can be.
It's amazing how dry the skin can be after 4 days.
It's amazing how tired i am and can't get to sleep.
It's amazing how i can't get started on reading.
It's amazing how amazing this journey of life can be and
it's amazing how i am alive and walking this journey.

2:21 AM Exams are finally over and i'll be free over the weekends before i start my attachment on Monday. I'm not suppose to blog anything about my attachment due to confidentiality or whatever but nobody said anything about bitching it to my friends. So date me if you want to hear me bitching about my job. Holidays are gone due to this attachment and i'm so sad. There's no break before we return to endless days of notes and books and readings and muggings and projects. But before that, i need to clear my exams. Oh god, let me clear them!

During the days of mugging, i had lots of good food delivered to me. Tubs of Haggan Diaz ice-creams, popcorns and donuts made me fat and i have to lose all those soon. My brains are empty and not functioning after all the papers so i should just upload some pictures.





12:38 AM Celebrated Jasmine Teo's 21st birthday on 16th August at an Italian Restaurant in Tanjong Pagar. She's getting old already la and we're glad that she liked the present even though it was not on her wishlist. It is always fun to meet up with the girls!

Went out after the exam and shopped around town before going to Marina Square to continue our shopping spree. Bought a top at LittleMatchGirl for 20 bucks and they are having a sale so CL bought a dress too. Caught the fireworks on display at MS! Lots of people were waiting for it including families with babies in tow. It wasn't plan for but it came as a nice little surprise before we head off for ice-cream. I remembered last year's fireworks too. The one who asked us to catch the fireworks was late and thus we watched it without him. This year was different..

I shall sleep and study tomorrow because i didn't touch my books at all today. I don't feel the stress even though i have not studied and yet i know i can't afford to flunk any modules this semester so why am i not working hard? Looking forward to the end of exams because i can start to read again on my way to work every morning! I may even consider bringing my portable DVD player to watch on the MRT or just listen to my new baby :) Lalalalala...

1:57 AM National Day was spent at Suntec officiating before returning home for a good rest. Met up with Jac and Lian after dinner and talked till the wee hours. It was nice meeting up with them and catching up. Couldn't stop talking till we were all tired and conked out. Reached home around 1plus and i'm so glad that the mother's asleep.


Received this orange box today containing 12 different flavours of beautiful donuts. I simply love sweet stuff and the herbal tea.
12 different flavours!
The silly piggy spent 1 hour plus buying the donuts and sending it to my house. I shall be selfish and finish all the donuts by myself, all 12 of them and turn into a fat pig. Lalalala..i'm a happy pig.

11:35 PM Woke up early because the father decides that he wanted to get an external hard disk drive that i told him that my school was selling. Drove to school and the stall wasn't open so we went to Sim Lim Square to get the HDD. Bought a 160GB one after walking around and i saw my new lust all over the place. The competitor was a hot pink PSP that also caught my eye due to its bright colour and then i wonder when did i fell in love with the colour pink?
Went to the nearby Tekka Mall for food with the father and we saw Li Nanxing having lunch there too. Nobody was staring at him because he looked so normal like the guy next door. Came home to try out the new toy immediately after lunch and it worked perfectly fine.
Left the house 2 hours later for Suntec to check out the place for the 24 hour 3 on 3 basketball challenge or whatever it was called. Caught Rush Hour 3 which was a sneak preview because the show is only coming out tomorrow if i'm not wrong. Saw Erica Lee at Suntec and she's super skinny! Met Kerry and XH at the place where the 3 on 3 was held and i hope tomorrow will not be hot and humid because the games will be played outdoors. I want to tan but without the ugly polo tee tanlines, Grace Chng, so i will hide whenever i can! The shirt was the nicest i got from all the 3 on 3 games that i had officiated so far. All right, i am a ANTA convert whahaha..

1:30 AM I hate ants! Any kind of ants no matter big or small, brown or black. Just get them out of my sight! Went out with the parents today and had fun. The mother went mad and behaved like a child. I drank bubble tea today again when i'm supposed to be cutting down on sugary drinks. I'm kinda happy these few days and i wonder if it's because of you..


I saw this beauty today in the hands of ZH's bf?! OMG! It's pink and looks fun to play with. It's my new lust haha..

My throat is hurting again when i had just finished my course of antibiotics. Just what is wrong with it?


2:28 AM

What Your Face Says

At first glance, people see you as driven and ambitious. Overall, your true self is reserved and logical. With friends, you seem dramatic, lively, and quick to react. In love, you seem mysterious and interesting. In stressful situations, you seem sad and helpless.

You Are Picky When it Counts

Like most sane women, you want a great guy who will treat you well. But you're also willing to put up with a few flaws in your Mr. Right You should congratulate yourself on having a realistic approach to dating. You probably have quite a few great guys you can date!

You Make a Great First Impression

You can handle almost any social situation with grace, even the tricky ones. Strangers often find you charming and interesting. You are often remembered fondly. Even if you're not naturally outgoing, you can make conversation with anyone if you need to. Whether you were born this way or had to work to get here, you are definitely charismatic. You're popular and well liked. People definitely look forward to being around you. Your social connections bring you a full and rich life. You understand how important it is to make a lasting impression.

People Envy Your Generosity

You're a giving soul, and you'd do almost anything for those you love. And they'd do anything for you! People may envy how giving you are, but more than anything, they envy those you open your heart to.

Your Ex is Dependent

Your ex is dependent on others from almost everything - and has trouble accepting responsibility. Your ex is not able to be independent and fears being alone. People with dependent personality disorder feel helpless when a relationship ends and need constant reassurance. Sound at all familiar?

You Have Many Alpha Tendencies

You're not a total alpha female, but you certainly know how to - and like to - get your way. You're forceful without being intimidating. You're confident without being vain. A perfect mix.

You Are Very Happy Being Single

You're not anti-relationship. You just don't need one to be content. You find plenty of happiness from your life as it is. And if you find someone you love, then that's just icing on an already decadent cake!

I think this is so true!

You Are 60% Extrovert, 40% Introvert

You are quite outgoing You are a social connector - you know a ton of people While you aren't a wild extrovert, you are a great talker A fantastic storyteller, you keep everyone laughing

Your Attitude is Better than 60% of the Population

You have a good attitude. While a realist, you do see the positive side of most things. People love to be around you.

You Are Great With Money

You know the value of a dollar - and you save and spend wisely. By living below your means, you've set yourself up for a rich future. And while it may hurt to sacrifice now, you'll probably have plenty of money later on. You're on your way to riches - just keep it up.

I wish this is true.

You're Confident...Sometimes

You can seem confident when the occasion calls for it But inside you may be experiencing a bit of self doubt A little more inner confidence could take you far... And convince others that you're as confident as you try to seem

You Are 87% Feminist

You are a total feminist. This doesn't mean you're a man hater (in fact, you may be a man). You just think that men and women should be treated equally. It's a simple idea but somehow complicated for the world to put into action.

My secondary teacher said the same things about me.

Ok i'm seriously bored and i can't sleep.

1:09 AM Back from POL-ITE cup at RP. RP girls team won as predicted and ITE put up a great fight too. Lost by 3 points if i remember correctly. I think i'm still quite sensitive when it comes to NYP games. Damn it..missed travelling, 3 seconds too if i'm not wrong and the forever missed, off ball fouls. I suck because i'm nervous at the start of the game and i don't understand why. Maybe it's because of my 2 idols whose teams were playing against each other, perhaps i wasn't prepared for the game, perhaps it's the fatigue that's plaguing me, perhaps it's the realization that i didn't study at all for the upcoming exams. Perhaps,perhaps,perhaps it's the sms that i received today that left me stoning and all worried. I wonder if i did the right thing by agreeing but then again, it is the choice you made and so i can only go along with it. Just be safe and that's all i'm praying for. I realized too that i can never reject anything that you asked for.

My boi boi is super unfilial! He asked me to go eat grass whereas he eats lobster at my expense. See, with children like that, nobody wants to give birth anymore. Denson, mama heart pain la! You treat me like that.

I don't know what i have gotten myself into. I must be mad! Kill me before i destroy myself with all my nonsense. I always thought i know what i want and yet i can't resist the temptation of "fun". I'm playing with fire and the one to get burnt will be me in the end so why do i still tempt fate?

A colourful post for a colourless day.


11:19 PM I should seriously get my ass down to studying! Have not started on anything yet and the exams are like 16 days away. Please motivate me to start packing my notes and study. Have no idea why my notes are all over the place when i didn't even touch them at all this week. Am glad that tomorrow's the last day of school because i don't know how i survived this semester. Last day of school also mean that i don't have to travel to school and can make use of my time to study. I hope i can do it because Baby's a major distraction with all her cuteness. She run after guys older than her and gets scared by the doorbell and runs into any guy's arms. She is so going to be a flirt when she grows up!
Lifted some weights today, wished i was as discipline in other areas of my life as when it comes to weight lifting. I need cardio training more because i'm putting on more weight and i need to reduce the amount of fat in the body so as to get toned muscles and not bulky ones. I shall do skipping or something.
Deleted all the shows i had downloaded to clear disk space. Damn it, i shall wait patiently for the vcds to come out before watching them. I shall be patient since love is patient. Start studying gwen!!!