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Gwendolyn (:

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1:41 PM 23/7 Fri

All presentations and projects for main modules were done so it's going to be time to start studying. Met Grace at amk before heading down to Renee's 21st birthday party. Met up with the babes and had lots of fun with them.

24/7 Sat

Gym in the morning with jas before meeting nyp bballers for lunch. Went to IKEA, bought something and help jas to deliver it to her house. Had tea at parkway before going to AMK hub to meet CL. Whole day out with lovely people!

Am sick today and went to see the doctor. Hungry like crazy and yet don't feel like eating because my throat hurts like crazy. Shall attempt to do some work but the radio's distracting. Muscles aching from gym yesterday and i think i didn't do enough at all because it wasn't as pain as it used to be.
Beancurd was rough like anything. I thought it was supposed to be silky and smooth? Arg..my throat!

11:10 PM Read this from Fish's blog and i think it's quite interesting.

"If you can love the wrong person that much, stop and think how much more you could love the right one."

5 situations in which you might want to consider just being friends:

#1 Your future goals are completely different.

If you are ambitious and your partner is not, then there may come a time when you realize that there is quite a gulf between you. The experiences of today, shape who you will become tomorrow. With the gulf in ambition, there could come a time when you just grow apart.

#2 You have different core beliefs.

While different points of view are often healthy for a relationship, some differences maybe a little too difficult to bridge. If you cannot find workable comprises to these differences, then it would probably be better to just be friends.

#3 Your relationship is purely sexual.

#4 One of you is more committed than the other.

One of the hardest situations to deal with is when one partner is obviously more committed to the relationship than the other. It may be because one loves the other more, or it could be that one of you is just not ready to make a commitment yet. Such situations often cause resentment to build up, probably on both sides. If this is happening to you, consider cooling it for a while until you are both ready for the next step.

#5 You were more loving as friends.

relationships come responsibilities and expectations that are not present between friends. If these added responsibilities and expectations are causing you to spend more time arguing and fighting than loving, then you might want to go back to what was successful for you… just being friends.

=)

"It takes no time to fall in love, but it takes a life to know what love is."

2 presentations tomorrow and i'm feeling the stress suddenly. Can't decide what to wear and i think i'll be crap tomorrow. French oral went all right because of the chocolate i had before the test. He said he'll ask 4 questions which will be 5 marks each and i think he asked me more than 4 questions. It seems bad but next week will be our last lesson so i shall hope for the best. Went for project meeting after french today and we went through out EC project. Mel is just fantastic, the website is so functional and pretty! All that we're left with is the presentation tomorrow.
After all the presentation, i shall meet my babes and head down to Renee Wah's 21st birthday celebration!!!!! I shall remember to bring my camera along to take pictures of that lovely girl.

Falling sick because i felt like there's something stuck in my throat and i can't seem to get it out. Not a good time to be sick. Shucks...


Where are you?!


12:06 AM Had MacDonald's breakfast today because the phantom treated us. She nice actually, just super mean when she wants to be. I agreed with whatever she said today.
Time to replay my sleep debt, been falling asleep everywhere and anywhere especially when there is a place to sit down. Fell asleep while waiting for the teacher to meet us after her lunch. Apparently, her lunch is more important than anything else. Damn slack la she. Went for lecture late because we were all waiting for the slacking teacher and after lecture, my legs just took me to the bus stop and i slept my way home. Didn't even know how i got to the bus stop today, i think i sleepwalked.
After friday, i will be free from projects leaving me with one French presentation to go. And then, i'll start studying for exams. Sucks, i realized that time is not on my side again.

10:07 PM Harry Potter wasn't as good as i expected and i still think the book is way better than the movie. Movie was short and lots of details were cut off thus making the movie somewhat flimsy since nothing holds the audience. Had fun though because we went to Vivo's Gold Class to watch the show. When the movie doesn't capture my attention, i turn to the nice dessert and cup of hot chocolate which turn way cold after the end of the movie. All right, i shall wait patiently and save up to purchase the last book of the series. Conflicting emotions here because i don't want the magic to end and yet, i want to know how it will end.

12:19 AM

6:44 PM Loads of things to be done:

French presentation
PMKT presentation
EC presentation
Various tutorials
Editing of Contact newsletter
Watching my downloaded shows to free up my disc space ( I should seriously consider getting an external hard drive)
Officiate
Start studying for exams
Lose weight

There's something wrong with my keypad on Twen. My "@" sign and " sign are switched and i don't know how to switch them back. Damn..

Getting wierd messages from wierd people do not make my day. Getting calls from stupid blackies spoils my day too especially when i feel like shaking my head according to their accents. The only thing that made my day was seeing and talking to you.

Some phrases that i found interesting:
"Falling out of love is very enlightening.For a short while you see the world with new eyes."
"Love is the difficult realization that something other than oneself is real."
"We can only learn to love by loving."

Stop calling me at different times of the day with random stuff. I know you don't care about your phone bills but i hate answering calls when they are so stupid. This applies to smses too. Why tell me that your test is a breeze? What kind of answer are you expecting from me? Guys are wierd! Stay away from me please.

11:09 PM Changed the blogskin to something brighter instead of the dull and morbid black one that i used to have.

The skin from my face and the back of my neck is peeling and it's damn itchy. I don't want to scratch it and yet my hands just doesn't listen to me.

Suppose to be doing project and yet, i'm super inefficient today. French test tomorrow again and i think i'm flunking it due to not studying.

Listening to the old songs on radio and i realised that at every stage of my life, there is a song that represented something. What is it, i don't remember.

Downloading serials online and having too much DVDs and VCDs waiting for me. It's sad that i don't have time for them and yet i don't seem to have time for anything else since the exams are approaching soon.

I'm tired and i took every chance i get to sleep so it explains why i can't sleep again now. I'll feel tired all over again tomorrow. It's a vicious cycle.

Sometimes, i just do not know how to communicate with you. I feel that there's so much things that you want to say and yet you are not saying them. It's tiring to talk this way with all the fascade, the double meanings, the hidden words and everything else. Why don't you just let go?

9:51 PM Sunday was the annual SRJC bball alumni where all or most of our teammates will turn up and have a great day playing basketball with the juniors and seniors and of course catching up with one another. Met up for breakfast in the morning as usual before we went in for the games. Was great playing with everyone again and i can't deny that i was very,very tyco yesterday. It was so much fun this time around because i didn't feel that tired running around the court and refereeing during the free time. The sun was bright and hot and it was not raining this year thus leaving most of us hiding in the shade or under gigantic umbrellas.And so, the annual SRJC bball alumni left me pretty red and burnt as usual. Left earlier because i had to officiate in the evening :( Gay part and Ena didn't turn up this year. We're usually the batch with the most people without taking into considerations those who are still studying in SR.

Ok..weekends were burnt. I'm burnt too!

12:27 AM Met up with Jo for lunch and it was nice meeting all the new people and the new experience that i had. I'm actually quite comfortable with things.
Headed down to CSH for a free ride down to SBC. Games there were boring like shit and i dumb, dumbly promised to go officiate on Monday. Shucks, Sat, Sun and Mon all officiating. Why can't i just take things a bit more easy? My favourite team lost! Ohh well..you either win or lose in a competition, if you can't take the loss in your stride and always think about winning all the time, you will never understand the true meaning of winning a game.
Transformers is way cool! Don't usually like movies like this but i'm glad i went to watch it. I should start gyming. I'm missing it.
Harry Potter! I'm coming!

12:29 AM Went to school for 2 hours just for tutorial and went to CSH after that because CL msg me and asked me to pop by. It's been ages since i do that, like pop by CSH after school when i'm not officiating. Games there were horrible and boring. Imagine a team having 0 points after 3 quarters with their opponents getting 50 over points. The score was a disgrace and an insult to the other team. Left because there's seriously nothing better to see and poor CL have to stay and wait for her bf.
Slept all the way back on the bus and i keep bumping my head all over the place. Came home and slept somemore till baby woke me up. Shall do work soon.
I hope i'm officiating my favourite team on wednesday.

After i rant, i forget..

4:20 PM Raining now so i can't head down to SBC. Finished up what i am suppose to do and i'm super tired. Chop off my hair and it feels so much lighter, cooling and environmental friendly because i do not need to use so much shampoo anymore. Shall go take a nap before i head out again. For Live Earth, it's green!

12:44 AM WTF! First, the leader said the 3 of us are going to do the 2nd part of the question and i asked her again on msn yesterday so i don't think i misinterpreted anything. The next thing i know, i'm suppose to do question 2 by myself and so, why is information not passed to me until i ask and ask and ask. Sometimes when i asked if i have to do anything more or add on to my part, the answer was "Nvm, so and so doing it." The best thing is, when i ask, i have to wait a fucking long time for the answer to come to me. Fuck it! Don't blame me for not doing my job because i don't even know i have to do it. Stayed up till 4am yesterday to do question 2 and i thought they could add on to what i have but apparently not and my textbook and CD are both not with me now because they borrowed it to finish up question 3. I could have finished question 2 by tonight but now i have to wait till after 1pm tomorrow and i'm super pissed because i plan my days and i don't like sudden changes as it disrupts everything. Arg..i'm so pissed that i can't sleep again!
I hate it when i ask something and they'll pretend not to hear it or choose not to answer me. I hate it when they leave me out of everything and yet expects me to know it. If i know it, then i wouldn't ask and then i wouldn't have to feel like a complete idiot because i get no answer when i asked. I hate it when people said they want to collect the text from me by 1pm and by 12.45pm, i get no sms or anything to confirm that they will come and get the text. I have to msg them and say i'm leaving my house and i left the text with my mum and you can come and collect it because i'm running late. Even after the sms, i get no reply as to whether they did went to collect the text. What do they learn in OCOM when it teaches us to reply to confirm you received the msg. What if i made no arrangement with my mum or if my mum wants to go out and yet has to wait for you irresponsible brats to come and collect the textbook at 3pm?! Have you ever spared a thought for other people when you do certain stuff? Excuses and lies are not going to cover your asses everytime. And i better find my text in the exact same condition as when i lent it out because i don't like my books to be crumpled and tattered. I do value my books very much, thank you, so NO photocopying using MY BOOK! And i better get my book back by 1pm tomorrow because i do not have a lot of time to finish up as i made plans already and i do not like to wait. Be responsible to your words and that's all i ask from you.

Sorry for the grammatically wrong usage of words and sentence structure. I'm too pissed to care about the content, choice of words used and sentences starting with "and". And yes, i complained to Mr Pig yet again!

2:36 AM I think there is something wrong with me. I'm super awake during the wee hours and half dead during daytime. Been sleeping at 3-4am these past few nights due to various reasons like projects and tutorials and i think my brain is dead. JX is keeping me company online and talking to me about taiwan drama serials and Liu Yi Fei? Haha and i'm entertaining him because i'm bored with OM project. Not sure if what i'm doing is correct and i feel damn dumb if it's not. Oh well, i'll just do whatever i can and hope for the best.

2:39 AM


11:16 PM Went for Tian Tian Huo Guo Steamboat on Monday with Mr Piggy and Mr Tay. The food there was nice and Monday was the only relaxing day that i had...

School starts at 2pm tomorrow because we have e-learning for EC. Am going to know my grades for PMKT and i'm scared. Saturday will be TC meeting and officiating. Sunday will be refresher course and Transformer (maybe). Why are my weekends always packed?

I'm craving for ramen and island creamery again.