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Gwendolyn (:

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11:39 PM Tomorrow's going to be a busy day. Going for the brother's school function in the morning before meeting my group mates at the National Library for project work. After that, i have to rush to celebrate my niece's birthday at her house which i have no idea what time i'll have to reach. Was quite a last minute notice from her but how can i resist my little niece? At the very least, she called and ask me to go so i said i will. Have to remind the mother to call me before she leave the house tomorrow.
Felt quite bad that i haven't been meeting the project mates for project meeting this 2 days because of school and work. Shall meet them tomorrow and i will try to finish up whatever i have to do by tonight so as to give it to them tomorrow.
Sunday will be spend on finishing up my tutorials and perhaps the article that i am suppose to write to. Ohh..and i have work in the evening and the father asked me to go for a swim this sunday with him too. Does he think that i'm superwoman? After swimming, i still have to officiate, i'm afraid that i can't take it hurhur..

Nancy Drew's out! Ok i know i'm quite slow about this but actually i'm quite interested to watch it. It is like a childhood fantasy come to life. Used to read about Nancy Drew when i was a kid and i always imagine her and how she solved the mysteries in my head. Now, i can watch it instead of imagining it. It helps when the girl playing Nancy Drew is the niece of my favourite actress- Julia Roberts. I hope i can find some time to watch it before it ends and i'm so going to watch it at Jubilee because it cost $5 on Monday to Wednesday. It's cheaper on other days at Jubilee too in comparison to the other cinema out there. Maybe, just maybe, i'll choose to watch it alone. GST increment is starting on the 1 July 2007. Shit, i haven't had time to shop yet and now, i can't avoid the 2% increase in GST. What crap? This means that i have to spend more and moolah will have to drop from the sky. Better still, just have moolahs hanging on the tree and i'll just pluck them when i need. Yea..i'm super tempted by the Creative Zen Stone Plus. Shall decide between the red and black one.

Mr Pig called and he's in a wierd mood. Please don't call me when you're having mood swings because i don't know what to say.

Just visited my aunt in the hospital earlier. Hope she'll be fine.

12:36 AM "Lovers like bees, lead a honeyed life." They stick together.

"A friend is someone you have learned to respect, someone who you have been through things with and come out the other side together with." What if i have lost the respect for that person? Is that person still considered a friend of mine?

Travelling from school to Braddell Heights was sucky. The journey was long and winding and i had to change buses at Bishan. The brain was dead after French lesson with all the grammar and vocabulary that i had to learn in class. Thus i wasn't thinking much during the game. I suck but i do recognise an insult when i hear one. Don't make me regret my decision to stay. Words like that are jejune and it makes all the effort i took to go down for training seem redundant to me now. I have better things to do if i came home straight after school. There are tutorials and project waiting for me, articles to write and of course my dear baby. Why did i choose to go and face someone who's so invective? Oh lord..tell me if i made the correct choice? And i choose not to speak when asked about trainings. Don't ask me anything, i don't know. Wo bu zhi dao! Wo zhen de bu zhi dao!

4:16 PM Baby came early today and i carried her before leaving for school. Heard that she went back to sleep after i left, she's super cute! IEF results were released today and i'm glad i did well enough. Now it's left with PMKT and EC.

10:02 PM Start of a new school term means waking up early, sleeping on the bus, getting hungry during lectures, trying to keep awake during tutorials, facing the many projects that we have, keeping up with tutorials and realising that deadlines are drawing closer and closer. But all's worth it when i bumpity bump into you in school :)

And all of a sudden, i'm lost as to what i want to do. Knowing that there's tutorials to be done but yet i can't seem to bring myself to start on them. I want to play bball. I want to tan. I want to go to the gym. I want to sit down and read. I want to watch movies. I want to spend time with Baby. I want to continue building castles in the air. I want to shop. I want to hang out with my friends. I want to go for a holiday. I want to go to the beach. I want to eat ice-cream. I've done little of everything with the exception of spending time with Baby during the 2 weeks break and it's getting to me. Why did i choose to officiate so much during the break and deprive myself so if not for the moolah. The practical world that we live in, leaves little for the creative souls.

I found one cheap place to watch movie which is Eng Wah at Jubilee. Monday to Wednesday's movies cost $5. Whoopee!!

9:30 PM Friday was the most busy day that i ever had during this 2 weeks of break and i am very glad that it was over and done with. Went to the market with the Mother because of Baby in the morning and then went home to change and it's off to the Bank of China to collect my letter. After that, i rushed down to SBC to officiate before staying back for the FIBA clinic meeting. Although it took up only half of my day but it was super tiring to be rushing from place to place with little rest in between and i'm glad that my break didn't consist of days filled up like this. Thinking back, i think i do have more rest during this 2 weeks in comparison to the normal term time. Although the break is short, i do hope that i'll feel better when school starts instead of feeling tired all the time.

Weekends were spent officiating at ACS and SBC and i can say that officiating starts to pick up again. No more day-dreaming while officiating and correct calls were made more often that not. It's nice to hear from a certain coach whom i do not have a very good impression of, saying that i improved a lot and then trying to make my partner sound good although he was running him down. Actually i was quite frustrated that my partner was PSK although PCK didn't make quite a good partner either at first. But then, i realised that if i run more than he did and make correct calls more often that he did because i ran and the good angles that i get, i can do a better job than him, made my day better. And after that, my favourite coach was coaching! What a nice ending to the rather frustrating day. The best thing was, coach came up to the table and asked me how many time-outs she had left and i handed her the scoresheet personally after they won the game. Goody-goody! Daddy sent me there and went for his swim with the brother before he picked me up after the game again. It's nice not having to wait for the bus sometime.

Ok, so the break is coming to an end and school's starting soon in probably 11 hours time. I shall make good use of these few hours left before sleep overtakes me to type out my article for Contact Newsletter. I have no inspiration at all because i saw someone else's report on the article that i was suppose to write on and it's blocking what i want to say. Call it writer's block or something but i just can't seem to type anything on the blank Word Document. It's still staring blankly at me 2 hours after i opened it. My information are all lying around the desk making it a messy clutter and yet i can't write. That's why i am here to rant and words come so easily here with no reference materials blocking my train of thoughts. I need something to unblock this heavy brain of mine.

1:02 AM Been busy with officiating ever since the start of this week and as the nights and days blend into one, i didn't realised my break was coming to an end till the Mother reminded me. And so, my last week of break will be filled with officiating everyday except for Thursday because it's my training day. If i ever hear anyone said that i'm not committed to training then i guess i'll kill the person because i always plan for Thursdays unless something unexpected crops up. Looking through my schedule, my Thursdays are always free from officiating because i know i've got training so if anyone ever dare to even comment that i am not COMMITTED to training, she'll get it from me.
Officiating sucks because of my level of concentration. Was day dreaming halfway through matches and that results in missed calls and really bad judgement. I wonder what's wrong with me? I guess i'm really, really tired with everything. I need a break to settle down, to do my tutorials and to chill.

The Northern Star..

11:54 PM I know you read my blog so don't pretend that you don't. It's totally disguisting this way with all the pretense and please, it turns me off. If you can't even be truthful about this, what makes you think i can trust you to tell you everything?

On a brighter note, we went to the Euro funfair yesterday night after out Contact meeting and i think it was fun. Mr Pig bought $3o worth of cheesecakes,brownies and mudpie to munch on during the meeting and there was lots of leftover. Super wasteful of us but we really could not stuff ourselves anymore. Anyway, the cakes suck at Coffeebean so it's not worth buying the cakes from there. We sat on the merry-go-round and i can't remember when was the last time i sat on one. It's like a revival of my childhood and i had so much fun! Picked a horse that couldn't move so i jumped horse halfway through the ride and sat on my black horse. Super fun and i laughed like mad. I think that is the only ride i dare to sit on because it's the only one that doesn't go too fast, too high or too heart stopping. I'm a wimp when it comes to rides but i love horror houses/haunted houses. Couldn't find the horror house although it was listed as one of the games/rides there. Oh well, there will be a next time.

Bought a tube and a pair of nice white shoes. I love shopping with CL where we went through everything slowly and try things we like but she spends too much on the bf. Shucks, i'm officiating tomorrow with my poor ankle hurting like crazy now. I hope it's an easy game tomorrow where i don't have to run much. Ohh..i changed my glasses today too. Spending too much these few days and i think i need to curb myself.

I was mesmerized by Jacob! He's so smart and tall and handsome and cute and he has the cutest eyes ever. Whahaha he even hugged me today :)

My lil star is sick.

12:11 PM Trying walking in heels with a twisted ankle, it's a hell of a pain i tell you. The pain intensifies everytime i took a step and i wonder why am i in heels. I can't even walk properly in heels even without a twisted ankle so imagine my agony today. I think i took twice as much time to walk from my house to the bus stop and back again. The things girls will do to look pretty are just crazy like shit. Anyway, it was worth the 3 hours of pain because i secured my internship at the Bank of China so i will be reporting to work in August. Imagine the throngs of office workers all squeeze in the MRT on the way to work just made everything a little dim but it's better than being dump in Jurong Island or anywhere ulu. At the very least, my workplace will be at Raffles Place where the big financial sector is and i will get to meet all sorts of people in their pretty office wear made everything bearable. And i have Sharon working in the same department as me so that's pretty cool too. So all i have to do is to add more clothes to my wardrobe and what's so irritating about shopping?

I've got a gigantic blister on my poor feet after walking in my pair of heels. Damn painful and i want to cry..the blister's on my left foot and my right ankle is twisted so now i'm officially a cripple! Baby couldn't recognise me when she saw me in the morning. She's so cute!!!

The first person to know the result of my interview was Mr Pig followed by Mel and CL.

12:14 AM Tiring, tiring day! Went for bball this morning and i'm sad to say that there's no gentleman in the world of referees except for Denson. Most are assholes! Sprain my ankle and didn't realised it till i took off my shoes and i went to Kovan to officiate after that. CL kept me company till it's time to work, that girl is a gem! She went with me and help me to pick my outfit for tomorrow after my trip to the hairdresser yesterday. And she accompanied me to Kbox after that too. Curled my hair yesterday and it wasn't all too curly today. Crap..i'm tired and the eyes are closing.

I'm sorry i behaved like a bitch yesterday to the mother. She's so tolerant of everything and even paid for my purchases and haircut. I remember that i casually mention that i feel like eating beancurd and the next morning, she bought beancurd back for me. Arg..totally guilt ridden! I shall buy her something nice tomorrow.

1:47 AM It's the end of the common test period finally! I can now have some fun, relaxation and exercise that i have been missing out on during this period and probably catch up on my beauty sleep too. It is then i realised that i've got tons of work to be done like projects,tutorials,meeting datelines of my other commitments, reading and finish all the DVDs that i've bought but not open yet. Ohh and then, there's the GSS waiting for me. I hope that i will not procrastinate too much during this much needed break and plan my days properly. I shall have to do some work before i head out to play or officiate. I love to write everything down and then cancel them out once i'm done with it so i need lots of paper (a pretty notebook perhaps)! Ok it's total randomness. Shall go and do up my hair tomorrow and purchase my stationaries which are long overdue. Meeting CL for some shopping too and then KBOX in the evening. I hope CL comes along because that stupid PIG said that there's only going to be the 2 of us. Like WTF? Who the hell goes to KBOX without the crowd? I'm getting paranoid with the things he said. When will he ever realised that i'm so not INTERESTED ( interpret it in whatever ways you want)?

Saturday's packed with personal stuff and Sunday will be packed with balls! 3 on 3 in the morning before officiating in the evening. I hope i can still run.
Interview on Monday and my internship will depend on it. I hope i get it though because it will be a great experience even if i had already decided that it is not going to be my choice. So i'm not going to be stress about it and just leave it all up to fate. Then it's meeting time for Contact- time to work again. Visiting Power 98 on Tuesday, 3 on 3 in the evening. Wednesday will be spend officiating and Thursday will be balls day again. Ok scrap that. Make it Tue, Wed, Thurs and Fri balls day. Saturday will be spend on a farm with my love before i am free again on Sunday.

It is now 3am. I better log off before the mother wakes up and nag at me.

10:22 PM All righty! IEF's down and there's 3 more papers to go. Jia you!

Been eating and eating during this period of time and i'm sure i put on a couple of kilos but i'm just not brave enough to face the weighing machine. It's ok, i'll be back to the lighter me when the common tests are over because by then, i'll exercise. Bball, here i come again!

I'm craving for cheesecakes and ramen right now. I want to watch Spider Lilies!!! I want more popcorns. I want this, i want that, ok la i'm pregnant. Haha as someone says, i give birth every 9 hrs..

I'm happy!

12:32 AM Sunday was spent sleeping the day away and welcoming the family back. Wanted to get ramen for lunch but the stall was closed and looking for new rentals. Sucks..got fried fish bee hoon instead. It was not as nice as the one i had at Serangoon Central so i shall not buy from them anymore. Family came back at around 9pm yesterdy and bought some food back.

Baby came today and she knows how to walk already! Haven't seen her in 5 days and she learnt how to walk without support. Super cute! So i spent the day playing with her and i haven't touch IEF yet. OMG! Tomorrow's the test and i haven't finish studying and i'm still online at this hour. I'm so dead!

11:33 PM 4th and probably the last night alone at home.

Had donuts for breakfast and lunch today before going for OM paper in the afternoon. The paper was do-able although i know that some of my answers were wrong immediately after the paper. Should be able to pass if nothing else goes wrong. Today's Saturday so i'm slacking away. Met Mr Chua and Mr Goh for dinner at J8 and we went to Cafe Cartel. Please remind me not to eat the fish there because i think it's horrible, flaky and dry. Couldn't finish it so i dumped it to Mr Goh. Helped him to finish up his greens and i'm filled to the brim. Had Haggen Diaz ice-cream immediately after that and i saw wifey. Ohh..i did my laundry today and hung them out to dry before i left my house for dinner. Woohoo..i feel like i'm ready to get my own house now that i'm used to living alone and everything. Just when i'm starting to enjoy everything, the family is coming back tomorrow!
I have 3 soft toy to keep me company tonight. All from Mr Chua. I think he's nuts to buy so many but then again, no complains from me since i'm not the one paying :)

I'm tired and still full from all the food that i had. I still have durians in the fridge from the night of pigging with CL. Ice-cream and popcorns too. The family is in for a treat of junk food.

11:20 PM 3rd day alone..skipped EC lecture in the morning and marketing tutorial today. Went for lunch at Fish & Co with Tng and Mel before coming back to the empty house. Fell asleep upon reaching home and woke up to meet CL for dinner after that. Didn't study at all today and i think i'm so dead. Getting use to being alone at home and starting to enjoy the peace,quiet and freedom i'm getting. On the other hand, i'm not getting nag at by the mother so i'm not studying as much as i should.
Dinner was great at Ramen Ten. Went groceries shopping with CL at AMK Hub and we bought lots of stuff! Durians, popcorns, porky and ice-cream, all the junk food! So filled after finishing 2 boxes of durians whahaha..and CL still managed to squeeze in another cup of ice cream. We watched the 9pm show together stuffing our face with durians. Oh man..you'll only get this when the family's away. Oh well, at least they called today. The father called but i want to talk to the mother la. I miss the mother more!

12:04 AM The 2nd day of my lonely existence at home. Woke up at 10am and ate biscuits for breakfast before studying. Head out to purchase my lunch and the rain came fast and heavy. Was soaked through by the time i reached home. Lunched in front of the TV again. More studying till it's time to meet a friend for dinner. Oh well, i am getting used to being alone and talking to no one in particular except to myself. Radio was on the whole day to block out the eerie silence. TV and radio are the greatest companions when one's alone.
The family didn't call back at all and it is the 2nd day they are there. Why aren't they calling?
Bought popcorns and snacks after dinner just now. Comfort food for this stressful period but surprisingly, i ain't that stress yet. Maybe i'll be when i see the paper on Saturday and realise that i know nothing and can't write a single word. That will motivate me to study harder.

Meeting CL for dinner tomorrow night. Ha..at least there's company for dinner again. Love her to bits.