Name
Gwendolyn (:

take me to the sky

12:17 PM Getting ready to go. Off to officiate and then to SIS.
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Bus trip to SIS was horrible because it was so crowded. I think the whole of Singapore is at the National Stadium for the match between Singapore and Thailand. The patrotic Singaporeans were all in red and white so wherever i go, i see a sea of reds and whites. Saw my primary school friend and he's on his way to the stadium too. Luckily i managed to get to SIS on time and not stuck in a jam like the others. Slingers won again and the last game is next wednesday. Got to choose my partner for East Zone finals and currently, i have 2 finals to officiate after my exams. Rejected so many games in lieu of the upcoming exams that i practically see $$ flying away. Arg..i'm going to earn it all back during the holidays and probably learn to drive too. Hopefully, mummy buys me a car after the lessons. Woohoo..

11:40 PM I still can't believe that she's dead. She's young, only 28, pretty, smart, rich, musically inclined and she's also dead. What else is there to say? I read with a heavy heart about her past shows, ex-boyfriends and how she got to be discovered. It seems like days ago when i watched her on "Variety Big Brother" a show which my mum loves and days later, news of her death gripped me. I can't deal with death when i haven't even lived enough yet.

Totally not motivated to study at all today even though i spent the whole day at home. Exams are creeping nearer and nearer and i don't seem to have done any revision at all, not that my grades are fantastic. They are just better in comparison to the days in JC where failure is part and parcel of my life. Now, i don't fail, i just get passable grades. Looking at the past year exams papers which i printed out reminded me of how much i had forgotton and should study before the exams and yet, all i wanted to do is sleep. I refused to allow myself to stress over the upcoming papers and yet by the rate i go, failure is going to creep up on me. Arg..i wish there's no exams! Tests and assignments are surely enough to gauge how much we have learnt without having to cramp our brains studying for a particular paper on a particular day. Exams only benefit those with great memorising power and it defeats the purpose of studying since memory work is all that is needed. I dislike exams and all the pain that it brings.

All i want to do is spend my time with you
Be with you through all my waking hours
Laughing and crying with you by my side
Everything loses its importance with you around
The smile from you is the best gift i get
But what can i give in return for that
Is my undying love enough
For all that i've gotten from you
This happiness that is not meant to be
The angel that falls from the sky
With unbroken wings and heart of gold
Mending this broken heart of mine
Making it whole and true again
Learning to love and trust once more



8:48 PM Went to school for POA and it sucks. Was totally zonked out as usual and i went off earlier, even before she said we can go. Muahaha and i rushed home so that i can be with Baby. Is this love? When you just want to put down everything, just to be with the one that you are thinking of. I don't think i'm going anywhere tomorrow too because Baby will be coming again. I'm scared that i can't spend time away from her in time to come. Spent time with her before i went off to officiate at Kheng Cheng Pri. Dislike primary school officiating even though it's easy peasy. I think i prefer B division better and i can't explain why. Everybody will love easy peasy jobs but i don't, i'm wierd! The little kids are so cute! One of the boys actually said that i'm pretty and he loves me. He's just 10 years old at most and he is already such a sweet talker. I wonder what he would be like when he grows up.

Labels: Is this love?

10:27 AM There will be no school from now onwards unless i decided to go to school for any lesson. Depressing thoughts and it's wierd. Who would be depressed when there's no need to go school? Maybe it's because i've not started on studying yet and i keep getting swayed to officiate when i know i should not. All right, at least now i have a chance to officiate primary school games. Can you believe that i've never officiate primary school games before? Oh man..

I hate the cold. Why is it so cold these days?

11:35 PM I shall not attempt to describe how my days of sickness went. Only mummy and i shall know. First day back in school after 3 days of MC. Totally wasted, was spaced out by the time it was BMGT tutorial. Denise had to keep reminding me not to stone and she even wrote me a letter. How sweet! Luckily there's no MAEC or i guess i would have turn into a rock.

Baby woke up with rosy cheeks today. Simply gorgeous <3

11:30 PM Great day at SP today. NYP and NTU won their matches respectively and that's something worth celebrating. The nut played well and scored 8 points. Had dinner at NaNa Thai with the girls after the game and i'm currently sick. Really sick with a runny nose that runs marathon at 10km/min. Used up so many packets of tissue paper that i've lost count of how many i used. Am suppose to do work but i'm too sick and can't concentrate so i shall blog about what happened on the bus just now.

Was taking bus 76 with Grace just now where there's this man and his 2 kids blocking our way. Didn't think too much about it at first until the conversation between the man and the bus driver got so loud that everyone on the bus can hear. The china man was refusing to pay the adult fare for his son because he said that his son is a student therefore he should pay student fare. I know he's from china because of his accent and not because of anything else. The bus driver insisted he show the student pass before he's allowed to pay the student fare. And thus, a quarrel ensued. The china man was getting louder and louder after a while and the bus driver just stopped in front of the police station and got the police to talk to him. The other passengers were also getting irritated and asked the police to get off so that they can be on their way home. One lady even paid the fare for the china kid and everybody thought that the matter was settled. But, no..the china man went to talk to the bus driver again. This time, a lady went up to him and asked him to sit down and keep quiet so that everyone can be on their way. The china man then walked over and quarrelled with the lady. In the end, the journey was delayed because the bus driver couldn't take it anymore and called the police. Didn't know how the situation evolved because grace and i decided to take another bus home. To think i'm just 2 bus stop away from my house. Cute guy on board so i don't mind.

2:08 AM Thinking of changing my blog address and i'm still thinking about it. Should i or should i not that is the question.

1:05 AM I forgot what i wanted to say. Brain totally not working anymore and everything that is supposed to be inside is not. Saw Paul Twohill in school today. Random. Went SP for dinner with CL, then match between SMU and NUS. Then it's home sweet home with all my work for tomorrow. Not to mention work for next week. Ok i shall promise myself, no more officiating after friday. Free myself up to study and get money from Mummy. I like to plan and with planning, i get some work done if not all. I need a plan to quit you because i'm still sore when it comes to you. No sense at all. Saw Baby on Wednesday like finally! Visited her at her house since she's not coming over till next week. Love her smiles! Was treated like a human drawing board by Ms Denise Foo. Those who saw me should have seen the 5 tortoises on my knee. I "poisoned" her with my pen too. Real careless with my MAEC test. All answes correct but due to some carelessness on my part, i don't get full marks. And all i want to do is to curse and swear at myself. What was i doing when i'm supposed to be checking my papers. Allowing myself to get complacent when i know i shouldn't be. I'm such a bitch!

Teach me
How to get rid of the constricted feeling
That is tugging at my heart everytime
Your name comes up unexpectedly
Teach me
How to behave in front of you
When all i want to do is to hide
And all i can show is anger
Teach me
How to let everything go
And just be me
Like before

Labels: Life's a BITCH

11:50 PM Shucks..i thought i would be officiating the girls match today and yet it was the guys. Therefore, there's no eye candy and i was bored to hell. Court at SIS seemed bigger than the usual bball court that i used to run. Was trying to move to the centre of the court and yet i feel so vulnerable because there's so much space around me. After the game, it was time for the Slingers game! This time, the young Australian referee provided the much needed eye candy. Slingers lost though they were leading at first but Tigers proved to be too strong for them. Now it is time for me to collaspe. Haven't done my tutorials for tomorrow and i don't intend to do them. Hmm..3 days of rest makes me a lazy girl. I want to pick myself up again. Going SP tomorrow after school. Friday will be at CSH then probably dinnr with girlies. Shall do all work on Saturday and Sunday then. Till then, i am a slacker.

2:37 PM I am addicted to the show "War and Beauty" which is currently being shown on Channel U at 10pm during weekdays. I think that it is a real nice show which shows how humans actually scheme and plot against one another. Never judge a book by its cover as behind the beauty, lies a deceitful heart was all i can say. Yup, and all the beautiful actress make the show more interesting than it can be. Too bad the actors involved are not hunks or the show might be rated an A*. It also shows how someone can actually act stupid and yet has one of the most scheming heart of all. I've learnt not to trust all..
Am so going to buy the vcd of the show because i keep missing Wednesdays episodes due to the fact that i need to be at SIS for Slingers games. Arg..how irritating can that be? Shall use the money i get to buy the show that i love. A good trade? All right, shall go prepare for officiating now though i have already collaspe. Feeling faint and weak..

Labels: Addiction

11:25 PM E-learning today so i stayed at home and tried to study. Nothing went into my head i think so i guess i won't do very well for the test tomorrow. Went down to SP to watch the match between NUS and NTU. I'm glad i went down because it was so exciting! Nobody knows who will win until the sound of the horn. NUS was very, very good today. Defence, speed, lay-ups and shots were all magnificent but somehow, NTU won in the last few seconds. A 3 pointer with less than 24 seconds to go sealed the game for NTU but NUS tried fighting back and it resulted in a foul for NTU. CP took the free throws and got 1 in so if i'm not wrong, NTU won by 4 points. Exciting game till the end. Saw the nut playing too muahaha..

I am a junkie! I'm addicted to all those junk that i put into my mouth these days and i can't stop. Can someone put me into a rehab centre for junkies? Perhaps, it will help me to get rid of my addiction.

I realised that i'm bad at comforting people. The more i say, the more people cry. Haiz..i shall just sit there and not open my mouth the next time. I can't help but keep repeating myself because once i see the tears, my mind just went blank.

Haven't see Baby since Friday and i think i won't get to see her this week too. Arg..i miss her like crazy. If only she knew.

Weet..there's no school tomorrow. Declared by yours truly. I wish i can declare a test free day tomorrow.

10:33 PM If you have a problem with me, tell me. Don't tell my friend and ask what is wrong. There might be nothing wrong but somehow, it might seem that way to you.

Took my beep test this morning and i ran 35 laps. Was feeling giddy halfway but that was not suppose to be an excuse. I will run my 66 laps when i'm feeling better, not when i'm nursing a sore throat and a gigantic headache due to drenching myself in the rain these few days. I'm glad that i am not down yet but i wonder how long can i survive before i collaspe. Refresher course took a turn for the worse when the "Taiwan politician" started talking. OMG! Can see the dread on everyone's face and XW actually told him that what he was talking about has no relevance at all. The shock on everyone's face was evident but they tried covering it behind an embarrased laughter. I continued talking to XW about whatever that interests us till the end of the course.

I guess it was just a bad day for all of us today. Accompanied the nut to pick up her grandma from Hougang before sending her back and the nut banged her car. Luckily there was not much damage and she's not hurt. Can't say the same for her bumper though, it's call a bumper for a reason. You bumped it first so that's the strongest part of the car i guess. Lunch went on fine at pizza hut. Then it was a mini shopping spree at Popular for the both of us before we head home. Eventful day..

Saturday was spent with bballies. Officiated at SP and RP won SMU by 1 point. It was so close, just a few seconds more and SMU could have won. A good fight put up by both teams nevertheless. Dinner at Kallang after that, rushed down in a cab and was as someone said "pleasantly surprised" when we saw Ena. Chilling session after that at Coffeebean before we head home in the rain again. Rain, rain, go away, come again another day!

Labels: A series of unfortunate events

11:44 PM A sudden sense of helplessness, loneliness and tiredness engulfs me. It feels like i had just fought a long and hard battle and the ending of it brings feelings that confuses me. On one hand, i'm glad that it's gone,over and done with. On the other hand, i don't really know what else is left for me to do. I'm sure i have another battle to fight and yet, i'm tired of all these battles and i wish for a break. But i can't have a break because i'll lose the battle if i do take a break. Don't really know what i am talking about. Babbling away after my MAEC test. Ok..the test was relatively easy so i guess it wasn't worth me taking a break from training. But then again, i wasn't very keen on training yesterday. Sleeping for 4-5hrs each night is NOT enough and all the weariness is reflected in my reluctance to go anywhere. All i wanted to do this week is to go home immediately after school, finish my work and sleep. But i can't. Commitments and a need for cash rendered me helpless and i have to go fulfil them before i start on my school work. That doesn't leaves me much time till i give in and fall asleep. I'm glad i planned out my workload this week and somehow, it leaves me with a bit of time to breathe. I spent a mind numbing, butt rotting 4 hrs sitting in front of the tv. Nothing goes in and all i see are images floating in front of me. I seem to be floating and drifting along too. It's probably the tiredness but once i close my eyes, i can't fall asleep. I'm glad i came home today to spend some time with Baby. She's the only one who kept me awake while i studied for my test before i head back to school again.

Saturday-Officiating at SP, Dinner with the girls
Sunday-Beep test at SBC, Dinner with Lian
Mon-Study for WCOM test, Tutorials
Tue-Fri-IAC Project, BMGT project
Fri-IAC project submission

Dong Jia Erchun

Labels: Ramblings

9:16 PM Finally watched "Night at the museum" yesterday at Vivocity. The cinema is very, very big and we went to hall 10 to watch the show. After that, it was dinner Secret Recipe before we head down to Indoor Stadium. Slingers won Kings and yet Kings was the better team. Oh well, for entertainment sake, i guess the ending was expected.

Supposed to be studying now but i have no motvation to start at all. Revision paper today was manageable and tomorrow's test is going to be easier and that makes me lazy. Have to wake up earlier to prepare for my presentation tomorrow. I really have to salute the team as we always do last minute work. Tomorrow's the presentation and we are only doing the presentation tomorrow morning. Hmm..guess i'm not making any sense now so i have to go print my report and notes and everything else.

Left with IAC project
BMGT project
WCOM test

12:04 AM All you do is to take and take. Have you ever considered how much inconvenience it will cause to others. Oh i forgot..you never stop to consider for other people except for yourself.

Why does everyone knows that i'm invited into TC as an observer except me? Or am i in denial? I don't know if i should accept it because it's a position where i can witness the exchange of political powers and yet, be embroiled in it if i'm not careful. I shall leave it in HIS hands.

I'm amazed that i can actually sit down at stare at Baby for as long as 2 hours, just sitting there and watching Baby doing stuff. I simply love her smiles and smell. She got the cutest smile on earth!

Enigma says: "Miss ya.."

3:33 PM Weet..going to SIS on Wednesday again! Watching Slingers play for free and then it's the IVP games on Saturday. I hope time is on my side.

12:18 AM Did all the tests in a moment of boredom while figuring out how to do BCA and it shows how well i can multi task again. Was talking to Denson online,doing work and doing the silly tests all at one go. After that, i had to go and be the photographer for my brother while he collects his bursury award and i felt that it's time wasted when i could have been doing other more important stuff. Left earlier as i was bored senseless and came home to watch "Happy Feet". Can never finish watching a show in one seating at home and i don't understand why. "Chicago" was watched halfway as was "Happy Feet" and "Goong" was like one episode done. I seriously need time for watching all the shows that i want. I shall not procrastinate from tomorrow onwards and finish my tutorials as soon as i get them. I never seem to be able to finish them during the weekends too. I'm such a slacker..

Saturday was spent with my lovely niece and i went with her for her Confucius class. Actually i was out with mummy before that and then we decided to go for the class too.


12:19 PM

You Are a Life Blogger!

Your blog is the story of your life - a living diary. If it happens, you blog it. And make it as entertaining as possible.

Your New Year's Resolutions

1) Get a pet hairless cat 2) Eat less garlic 3) Travel to India 4) Study abnormal psychology 5) Get in shape with street fighting

You Have Low Self Esteem 32% of the Time

Generally, you feel pretty darn great about who you are, even when you mess up or fail. Occasionally, a huge setback will make you question yourself, but you pick yourself up quickly.

You Are The Group Gossip

You love your friends... And you love to talk smack about them And frankly, you just love to talk in general You're definitely the one to go to for the dirt!

You Have A Type A Personality

You are hyper, energetic, and always on the mood You tend to succeed at everything you attempt And if you don't succeed at first, you quickly climb your way to the top! You could be called a workaholic, but you also make time for fun As long as it's high energy and competitive, you're interested You have the perfect personality for business and atheltic success

You Should Be A Gemini

What's good about you: witty and energetic, you're simply the most fun to be around What's bad about you: you're flighty - losing interest in people and projects quickly In love: you enjoy the "honeymoon phase," but after that it's hard for you to stick around In friendship, you're: likely to have many groups of friends, with many different interests Your ideal job: mime, guru, or cartoonist Your sense of fashion: casual and simple You like to pig out on: fast food, especially burritos

You Are 12% Hypochondriac

While your physical health isn't always perfect, you don't freak out about it. You know there's only so much you can do, and worrying doesn't change anything.

You Are 12% Slacker

You are anything but a slacker. You're truly a go getter. You never let laziness get in the way of living your life - and you can't stand to see it in others.

You Are An ISFP

The Artist You are a gifted artist or musician (though your talents may be dormant right now). You enjoy spending your free time in nature, and you are good with animals and children. Simply put, you enjoy bueaty in all its forms and live for the simple pleasures in life. Gentle, sensitive, and compassionate - you are good at recognizing people's unspoken needs. You would make a good veterinarian, pediatrician, or composer.

Your Five Variable Love Profile

Propensity for Monogamy: Your propensity for monogamy is low. You see love as a gift that you should give to many. It's hard for you to imagine being with one person at at time... Let alone one person for the rest of your life! Experience Level: Your experience level is low. You've probably either had only one relationship.. Or all of your relationships have been very similar. You still have a lot to learn... and a lot to try! Dominance: Your dominance is low. This doesn't mean you're a doormat, just balanced. You know a relationship is not about getting your way. And you love to give your sweetie a lot of freedom. Cynicism: Your cynicism is medium. You'd like to believe in true and everlasting love... But you've definitely been burned enough to know better. You're still an optimist, but you also are a realist. Independence: Your independence is high. You don't need to be in love, and sometimes you don't even want love. Having your own life is very important for you... Even more important than having a relationship.

I think the independence part is very true!

Your Personality Cluster is Extraverted Intuition

You are: A true wordsmith - a master of words Original, spontaneous, and a true inspiration Highly energetic, up for any challenge Entertaining and engaging, both to friends and strangers

Your Learning Style: Curious and Brilliant

You are a very abstract learner. You can grasp even the most complex theories. You Should Study: Astronomy Biology Chemistry Computer Science Linguistics Mathematics Philosophy Physics Psychology

Your Dominant Intelligence is Linguistic Intelligence

You are excellent with words and language. You explain yourself well. An elegant speaker, you can converse well with anyone on the fly. You are also good at remembering information and convicing someone of your point of view. A master of creative phrasing and unique words, you enjoy expanding your vocabulary. You would make a fantastic poet, journalist, writer, teacher, lawyer, politician, or translator.

Labels: Totally random

1:05 AM School just started for 2 days and i'm already dead beat from all the make-up lectures, tutorials and what's not. Not to mention that project deadlines are so near and lots of work are not done yet. I have to step in again when i've already completed my part and i've got a buggering groupmate who buggers me once i come online. The solution to that bugger is: I've blocked that person off MSN and shall not talk to that person again till i've completed my work. Falling asleep during MAEC lecture and tutorials just made the day so much better. Thursdays are now days that i dread since the next day is submission of project and presentation day. Trainings fall on Thursdays too and it made a long day even longer. I just want to finish my work now and fall asleep on my bed. I whine because it's the way i deal with stress. It doesn't mean that i don't like what i am doing now. In fact, i love it but yet, humans are always greedy, they want what they cannot get. Which is sleep for me now. Ohh..and maybe time to watch some tv programs, read the newspapers and to go catch a movie. Test results were all out. Didn't do too badly except for POA. Not very happy with what i got but i think it's what i deserved. Shall work harder for the exams now. Exams are in the 2nd week of Feb if my information is correct. That's like 1 month away?

Mr X is bothering me so much that i felt like getting him out of my life. If i've known that it's so troublesome, then i would have chosen not to know him in the first place. For a guy, he moves on slow and i'm seriously disgusted by it. I like people with strong character, firm and knows what they want(characteristics that i lack). I don't like wimps and wusses and he's behaving like one. Was he like that when i knew him or he turned out to be like that after everything. Get a life and stop imposing on my life. I've got my own life to lead and there's no Mr X in it.

Supposed to be officiating at NUS tomorrow but i've got make-up lecture again. Timing just ain't right and i need to bring Twen out tomorrow so i guess i just have to forgo officiating tomorrow. Not to mention that i have not seen Baby for nearly a week. Missed Baby like crazy and i actually called just to hear Baby's voice though Baby's not interested to talk to me. Oh my god, i think i'm sick. Have not been asked to officiate other games yet and i think it's great. Frees me up for school work, i can go down to watch IVP games as and when i like and to keep my Baby company.

Falling sick again. Painful, painful throat with a great big hole.

Labels: Whinings

9:26 PM The start of a brand new year and everything starts on a clean slate. It's been a wonderful start to year 2007 indeed. I have learnt to put down the past and move on and i believe this had made me stronger. So this year, i'll be strong enough to withstand anything that comes my way.

Had a bbq cum countdown at Grace's place and also to celebrate her birthday with her. Totally funtastic and i did silly stuff as usual. Met up with CL for a movie date on Monday. Totally last minute but i'm glad she can make it. Played bball today at Seng Kang CC with the seniors and i'm tanned, by a bit. Woohoo..great start to 2007! Pictures shall be up later!