Name
Gwendolyn (:

take me to the sky

12:30 AM Playing bball for 2 consecutive gives the body a big ache. The pain wasn't so bad today but after the game at NYJC, the pain starts to set in. Now my arms are aching and my hip too. Was elbowed by one of the players and i think the bruise is going to be gigantic. Spent so much today at FBT's warehouse and Popular that i think i'm going to starve next week if money is not coming in. I'm a lucky girl so i guess i don't have to starve next week :)

"Saving Face"-another nice show introduced by Grace.

11:46 PM Bball session with CP today is so taxing that i really missed training in JC. Simple stuff like 3 man weave leaves me half dead and resting for long periods of time. Where did my stamina go? My under basket shots are as lousy as usual and i can't understand why i just can't hit the corner. Imagine me shooting when i'm just under the basket. At least the accuracy is higher and the irony is, the ball went in! Felt so out of place and lost..

And they say, beautiful people can do no wrong.

I miss hanging out with the girls. Just a simple dinner will suffice. When will anyone be free?

You always seem to catch me at the wrong timings. When i'm busy, you're not. When you're busy, i'm not. I feel guilty sometimes when you have to accommodate my schedule and you're so nice over it.

Bumped into Ms Rivera and Ms Gan today at Turf City. They went so far just to get groceries? Teachers are so free!

12:25 AM Tiring, tiring day. Officiated at OFS today and went down to officiate at Delta Sports Hall again after that. Forgot to bring an additional referee attire and so i wore the stinky one again. Luckily i didn't bring an additional one or else, there will be none left for me to wear tomorrow.

Why do guys only think of sex when the show says R21? Can't it just have mature content where the younger audience can't be exposed to? What fills up their brains, i wonder..

My heart is aching. A real ache and i'm scared it's a warning sign that i have heart failure.

"The Devil Wears Prada" is not satisfying my need of a good read. Any recommendations my friends?

I guess everyone needs some reassurance sometimes. It's scary but true.

11:48 PM I saw Felicia Chin today! She's super skinny..OMG!!

Met my sec school classmates on Friday to celebrate Kwet's 21st birthday. Time passes so quickly and we're all 21 already. Met for dinner and KTV after that. Realised that the guys are looking better now than when they are in school and they can all sing. Didn't noticed that before. Everyone is embarking on a different journey and i seem to have missed the ship.

As mentioned before, i'm falling for a guy whose blog i read. The way he writes is simply so enchanting that i can't seem to fall out of it.

1:14 PM Life has been pretty mundane this week and the most exciting thing i've done is to play bball with the girls yesterday at Lor Ah Soo. The next best is watching Slingers at the Singapore Indoor Stadium. Met the nut first at Hougang Mall to eat and shop and talk before we head down to the court. This time, there's five of us. Not bad considering that Huili managed to join us too. Played 5 on 5 with some guys there and we won and lost some of the games. Now, i'm nursing an ugly bruise on my index finger. I wondered how i got it.

Anyway, i've been exercising physically but not mentally. I feel stagnant, not learning anything and not getting intellectual stimulation from anything/anyone. I read the papers daily, magazines, books and anything that i can lay my hands on but still, i don't get the feeling that i'm growing. I wonder why. Is it because that i simply block out everything or that my brains are not working anymore.

Oh well, i shall go watch all my VCDs and DVDs before i die of boredom. I don't think it kills but it seems to be killing me slowly.

Baby Ashley likes Pwen as much as i do. She likes to grab Pwen's nose with her small little hands and "talks" garbish to Pwen. And all Pwen does, is to smile back at her and probably cursing her for dirtying Pwen's nose with hands that are full of saliva. I just like hugging Pwen whenever i'm at my desk.

1:01 AM I think i did a bad job officiating today. Don't know what's wrong with me and i just couldn't give my full attention to the game. Horrible, horrible officiating. Oh well, it's over so i shall not think about it anymore. Just felt bad towards the teams.

It's the first time i missed meeting someone on the bus.

Sometimes i think i'm so dumb to tell you things that i don't really want other people to find out. I mean, i chose to tell you because i feel that you're someone important enough for me to let you know what's happening in my life but yet i don't feel secured leaving the information with you now. I'm sorry i flared up again. You're a treasured friend.

I guess i need to consider more about other people feelings instead of just my own. I need to learn how to think of other people's feelings too. Not used to this so i'll just have to learn. Learning is a never ending process..

1:00 AM Yet another walkover and this time, i was lucky to be the referee of the game that was "walkovered".
Baby Ashley was very well behaved today. Slept most of the day away and she looks so cute when she's sleeping. It is amazing how much she has grown in the past month. She has learnt how to grasp things with her hands although she puts everything and anything into her mouth. I remembered that she used to only know how to swing her arms about, and that was only last month. She is learning how to flip over currently and gets frustrated when she gets stuck halfway. She's making noises with her throat and has a deep, throaty growl whenever she gets too excited. Her laughter is the best music there is..

I'm actually quite irritated with you when you said that you would tell me things when we meet up. I have to hear it from someone else and confirmed it with you again. Why can't you tell me immediately when you know the information? I know you don't want me to worry but it makes me more worried than ever because i know you would rather suffer then let me worry. And then i think there's no point to this again..

12:30 AM Got my results on the 15th and i thank God that i passed every single subject, even the most feared statistic. Results were not as bad as i expected but GPA was definately something that i have to improve on if i want to continue studying after this. Went out shopping with Yuan immediately after i got my results. Nope, no shopping spree since retail therapy is not needed. Bumped into Vallence, Claire and Eliza on the same day too. Think everyone's happy with their grades so they are out shopping.

Weekends were spent officiating and meeting Yuan. Just realised that i met her 6 out of 7 days this week. Even when i'm out with my family, i still bumped into her. Oh man..
Ohh..i bumped into Sharon for 2 days straight too.

Jay's new CD is nice.

11:02 PM Officiated at UWC today with Mr Calsberg (think it's spelled this way since i don't drink, i don't really know how it's spelled.) Loads of cute guys around and it's only one game. Yuan accompanied me and after that, we went for dinner at Chomp Chomp with BC and JC. Missed the dinner at Indoor Stadium because we were late and so we don't get the tickets for 20th Sept :(
Meeting Yuan tmr again for shopping and maybe a good rest after that. I hope my results will be good when i check it tomorrow. Oh well, i shall use shopping as a therapy if it's not.

2:22 PM

I mourn the lack of photos on my boring blog so i should include all the pictures i have taken this past few weeks/month.

My new bag no.1. Got it on the 12/9.

My new bag no.2. Got it on the 13/9.

The fried mushroom from Mushroom Pot.

My kiddy meal from Sakae Sushi again. This time it's flying USA.

Pictures in the car after Kbox.

Pictures in Kbox itself.

Celebrating Char's bday at "Changing Appetite" with Kerry, Yuanxin, Grace, Jasmine and the nut. Look at the greedy birthday girl!

And that's all folks!

10:52 PM Gym today hurts all the muscles in my arms. I can barely move my arms now. It's good since i have been eating so much these days. LJS can hardly fill me up. Mummy's so nice to leave food for me, chicken wings, soup and vegetables. Guess which one i ate?

I try to balance everything and i hope my efforts pay off. I don't want to abandon anyone even if i'm busy. I need a balancing scale and i'm afraid of hurting you.

I'm sorry, but you are not my first priority anymore.

11:44 PM Met Jo this morning and i learnt quite a lot. At least, some of my doubts were cleared and she was so nice to travel down from Jurong to meet me. After that, it's lunch with Yuan and BC. Had hagen diaz ice-cream after lunch, so sinful to be eating so much these days.

First walkover today for me. Yeah..only have to be table official which is good because i'm so tired today.

So many books that i want to get but i still haven't finish those that i have. Oh man...i wish for more time.

Don't ever look down on me. I'll make you regret it even though i may not be good. Winning by 1 point is still a win and i made that winning shot!

12:17 AM Woke up at 6 plus today so that i'll be able to reach Bugis in time to officiate "Tucker 3-on-3". It was supposed to be at 10am but due to last minute changes, it started at 8.30am instead. Luckily we called Uncle David if not we'll be late since we arranged to meet for breakfast at 9am. Officiated with my fave partner today again! The games went on smoothly till the rain starts to fall. Ok, not exactly "smoothly" since i went to ask the player if he wants to play ball or fight but smooth enough. Raindrops falling on my head these few days make me feel a little sick.
My eye candy spoke to me today!!! *Melting* Totally cute!
Ohh..the guys are so nice to come early to keep us company and to buy us drinks. They are boring but nice enough to follow us when we went shopping.

"Little Man" is simply hilarious and racist. I like the part about the breast milk, was actually quite a touching scene till the joke came along. Was laughing so hard till tears rolled down my cheeks. Luckily no one can see me in the dark..

I'm tired..and burnt and watching too many movies these days.

Just one CD and i can watch DVDs on Twen. I don't need to watch VCDs and DVDs at the living room now since i can just hide in my room all day watching Twen. Hopefully she can play "Russell Peters" and "The L Word" now. Shall try out when i'm free.

11:40 PM I'm back from a dance performance from NUS Cultural Center and I'm pissed off with the way people behave. Firstly, they came late and so the performance started late. Next, they came in after the start of the performance and so blocked people's view. Lastly, they sit damn straight up and block my view! WTH!!! It was not so bad at first, at least i can still see part of the stage if i tilt my head to the left or right. After that, i don't know what is wrong with his ass that he got to figet and so i have to tilt my head according to his figeting. Gave up in the end and fell asleep. Irritating shit. Had steamboat after that and the soup is fantastic though the nut might not agree. It soothed my frayed nerves.

"Tucker 3-on-3" starts at 8.30am tomorrow instead of 10.30am and there goes my beauty sleep. Breakfast with my fave partner tomorrow and then it should be fun after officiating. My darlings are coming over to look for me :)

Shall continue with "Devil Beside Me" later. Nice show and i still got loads more VCDs to go.

I'm falling for a guy whose blog i read...

12:22 AM Gym on Wednesday and bball on Thursday left me sore and aching right now. Oh well, i exercised and that's all it matters.
Was caught in the rain while riding pillion today. Totally drenched and my jeans were soaked through. Bought a pair of shorts at a shop near SBC and luckily i had another t-shirt from Converse with me today. Saw *erhm* today too! Not a bad day considering i was not at home for most of the day.

We were so close and time threw us apart.
I guess that's part of growing up.
Where you meet and drift apart with people you love.
Held by constraints of the modern world.
At least, i existed in your memories.
And memories are the most beautiful things on Earth.
Thus, I shall be a collector of memories.

3:55 PM Officiated finals at ITE Simei yesterday with dear Kerry. Was ok if i'm not wrong but certain comments just make me feel that girls are looked down upon no matter what they do. Shit..is it true that girls can never do what guys can do? I don't believe in that and i'm going to prove them wrong. Just watch me!
Watched "Barnyard" after officiating with the guys. Short show, and it's just not long enough for me to feel the connection with the protaganist. Not really a bad show..
Missed CP's training yesterday as i was helping BC out with his powerpoint. Went to his house and stayed till around 12 plus. Had supper after that, so fattening.
Spent my day clearing the bottom shelf of my bookshelf. It's only the bottom shelf so i still have a lot to do. Can't watch VCDs today because my brothers are home and they have to study. Going to the gym later with Yuan. Yeah..working out and keeping fit. Maybe i shall read before meeting her.

11:18 PM Went for lunch at The Mushroom Pot today. Well, all those who knows me know that i don't really eat mushroom because of the wierd smell and so, i was surprised that the mushrooms i had today tasted quite well. Ordered chicken noodles and of course there were mushrooms in the bowl as it's call The Mushroom Pot for a reason. Ate some of the mushrooms and i found that they actually tasted not bad. Had fried monkeyhead mushrooms, thai style "old man" mushrooms and fried shitake mushrooms. After that fulfilling lunch, we went to watch The Devil Wears Prada! I like the show and especially Meryl Streep. She's wonderful as the high and mighty Miranda Priestly who hisses at people when they don't meet her expectations. Woohoo..hot mama there. Anne Hathaway's transformation from a wide-eyed innocent girl to a capable assistant was believable. I like it when she dresses up and shock the rest of her colleagues. Hurhur..the looks on their faces were hilarious.
Went for durian chee cheong fan after the show. It's freaking nice!! The chee cheong fan's skin is so thin and the durian's pulp is so thick. Nice combination! The mango chee cheong fan was not as fantastic. Disappointing i can say.
Officiating at Delta was shocking. Someone's head got elbowed and he bleed a hell lot. The ambulance hasn't even arrive when we left that place. Nobody mentioned anything about my officiating so i shall assume i did all right. The big, fat, egoistic asshole ignored me the whole night. I smell something sour hurhur.. You were the one who asked me who i was going out with so don't give me that stupid attitude. It just shows how immature you are. If you want to know something, handle the consequences of knowing. If it hurts you, then don't ask. Dumbo, pea-brained, idiot and i lost words to describe you.
Two days of fun and i hope tomorrow will be fun too. Shall i go for CP's training tomorrow? I want to play bball but i don't want to see the big, fat, egoistic asshole. I know i will disappoint someone if i go and i will disappoint someone else if i don't go. Oh lord, i'm stuck in the middle with nowhere to go. Choices have to be made because there's only one of me. I'm a scarce resource so i shall jet up the price.

11:47 PM A great breakfast with the nut because she went to school and realised that there's no training. Had hotcake meal again..woohoo a great start to a busy day.
Went to ACS to officiate after breakfast and after that, the princess and i went down to my aunt's place to shower. JC came to pick us up and it's off to Hong Kah CC after that for more officiating. Damn tiring because i had to run and i'm sure i missed out quite a couple of stuff. Oh heck it..shall not be bothered by anything. Mr Mah sent me home and told me that i have a greater chance of being a FIBA referee than JC if i pass my 66 laps of the beep test. Oh my god! I have never thought of being a FIBA referee! International referee when i'm still missing out on lots of little violations and fouls here and there? I don't think it's within my capabilities though i was flattered that he thinks that i'm of a certain standard. Hurhur..maybe i shall try to hit 50 laps of the beep test. I just hate running when it's just plain running.

Woo...the scenery at Little Guilin was nice! Now i know where Mediacorp film their martial arts scene with mountains and river.

Nutty Tan, i appreciate it that you came down to my aunt's place to pass me the VCDs even though you had a crappy day. I had a great breakfast with you too.

I like the song Chu Dian by S.H.E, the MTV is nice and sweet too.