Name
Gwendolyn (:

take me to the sky

9:38 PM Yesterday's N4 cluster was fun.The primary school kids were cute and my game finished the earliest so i can slack at the bball court.Got to play bball too.Had lots of fun with the gals.After that,ruiyi and i accompanied joan to meet a jerk.Wow..never seen a guy like that before.His attitude is damn bad lor!Really shitty!How can a guy like this exist in this beautiful world?Feel like punching him!JERK!!
Went to visit yuen in the hospital after the whole thing ended.Really pains me to see her lying in bed,she can't really talk too cos her throat hurts.It's so different from her bubbly self.Pain pain..
Almost 10 of us went to visit yuen.There's joan,ruiyi,baoshan,grace,jasmine,g.p,yan sze,renee,deanna and me.A whole platoon of us went down to the hospital lor.Think we scared one of the male nurse there..hee he's super lame.He told us that only 2 of us can go in each time so we have to pair ourselves in pairs.Went in 2 by 2 and renee has to stand at the door and help us to open it cos it's automatic and has to press a button.Whenever the door opens,the whole group of us wave at yuen cos her bed is near the door.Guess it must have looked funny la..we looked so intimidating but behaves like crazy people.After that,5 of us went in together at once cos it's tiring to keep changing people.We went in when the nurses were not paying attention.Think we went in for too long and baoshan has to remind us to change shift.Haha...
Yuen called me today to tell me that she's feeling better.So happy to hear that.Going to visit her on tue again.She can now get out of bed.Hopefully the tubes will all be gone by tue.I hate the hospital,it's so depressing.

I hate myself,my life and my attitude!

10:03 PM Yeah..just finish 2 papers today-GP and lit paper 8.Paper 8 was filled with e.e.cumings poem and i didn't know how to do so i picked the compare and contrast question.Haiz..the rest of the holidays will have to be spent studying for my other subjects.Want no more complains from the teachers.GP paper was ok and i picked the last question which is about who leads a harder life in today's society,man or woman? I wrote 4 points but i arranged them wrongly.Found out too late and so i never change my essay.Hope it won't cost me too much.
After lit paper,i went to the track to help set up for N4 cluster games tomorrow.Then bb junior,jasmine and g.p went out together.I tacked along too and we went to Bishan to buy some stuff for LTC camp.Had dinner at J8 and msg yuen.Glad that she's awake and we're going to visit her tomorrow after the cluster games.Yeah!I'm in charge of hurdles tomorrow and the primary school kids will be taking part in this event.Why can't i be at bball?At least i can get to play for a while.Really miss bball alot.Hopefully i can get to play bball during the holidays.But must also study too!

Really regret that i didn't pay attention to my surroundings during lunch today.Let myself relax because i thought that nobody will go to heartland for lunch but then i found out that u were there.So near yet so far..u were there but i didn't see ya.We were only separated by a few layers of wall.Damn it!Felt so upset after lunch but luckily i finished my paper before feeling sad all over again.Maybe i should have join g.p and ena at macs.At least i'll get a chance to see ya but i guess it's no use regreting now.Didn't have much fun eating with the class cos i was sitting with cat and tri.Feeling so awakard..so next time when i feel awakard,i'll just leave the place and maybe it's then when i'll see ya.Am suppose to let go on tue but i guess i broke the promise ya?But i'm healing..healing just fine.

Got locked up in the pe store on wednesday by ENA!Darn..they made fun of me and we laughed like hell.Think the other students there think that we are crazy.Ena did a dance pose of me..diaoz...super embarrassing.Ms Rivera is making fun of me this few days because of ena...haiz...
Ya...my b** got unhooked today.Guess who did it??Ena Ng again!Hiaz..haf to find a time to get back at her..better watch out my dear!

Really miss training with the girls.Don't understand why we can't go down for the jc1s training..although some of us can't make it sometimes but i guess it's a good bonding time for the rest.After the holidays,i think that a few of us cannot come down for any trainings that we might have.So there'll be no more training for jc2s is it?I don't know...feeling lost again.

Sinking like before when i thought i climbed out of the hole
Darkness envelops me and i don't know how to clear it
Walking without light and clarity makes me fearful
Frightened that i might sink in too deeply again.

Have to wake up early tomorrow...better go sleep now gwen.
Can't stop myself from waiting..waiting for u to be back.

5:41 PM I'm tired today.Don't know why,maybe pmsing.Came home at 1 something and studied for lit paper 8.Studyin poetry now,shall do gp later or something.Slept for 1hr and 30mins before i wake up.Haiz..so much work to do.There's a briefing for N4 cluster games tomorrow at 2pm and i think that i'll have lessons until 2pm.So i guess i'll miss lunch.2 papers on fri,sat have to do cip.Can rest on sun!
Hmm..yuen is not coming to school on thurs.She's admitting into the hospital at 1pm.Fri's her op.Shall find time to visit her or else she'll be bored.
Didn't have lunch with ena,gp and yuen..having a terrible headache.Sian..we always have lunch together and today,i came home and have lunch myself.Pathetic!
Hope tomorrow will be better cos today is not a good day.
Have i mention that it's JOCELYN's birthday today?Gave her the present this morning and we crap a bit lor..haha she's funny.
Ooohhh...it's cold today or am i getting sick?


Don't want to think anymore
Just let my brains be dead


"Life is not about holding on to happiness onli... Life is about letting everyone ard u be happy and not onli u... Life is about learning to let go at the correct time... Life is about realising the mistakes u made... Life is about living it out on your own by falling and standing up again... .... .... Life is all controlled in your own hands by your own way. Got this from Grace's blog.It's nice!


5:51 PM Hmm..back to my complaining..haiz..sr's entrepreneur day is pathetic!
It's nothing compared to Ny's homecoming day.The stalls we have are limited and it's only at the concourse..give it a plus point since this is the first time sr has someting like that.
Went for the big walk this morning...met Ena at 6am at amk before taking a cab to bishan to wait for bb junior.Reach Kallang at 6.30 and waited for the others at the entrance.After a while,received a call and they are all at the starting point.By the time we reach the starting point,they are all ready to go..diaoz lucky we reach in time.
Walked with yuen,grace and jasmine all the way to the ending point.Haha we were the fastest in comparision to joan's and ena's team.
Went to marine parade for brunch..had macs again.Feel so fat!Must do more exercise or my stomach wun be firm but flabby.Haha..g.p's flabby!
After that,we went home.Slept on the bus all the way home.Luckily didn't miss my stop.
Came home and nobody's was around so i slept till about 5pm.Haiz..so piggy.Shall go study later.Hmm...we didn't walk together as i expected so a bit disappointed but we had fun!The 7.5km wasn't that bad at all if u have friends to walk with.
Super funny this morning when we went to pick bb junior up.She was late so i called her n ask her to run to the cab.Then later we saw a "ghost" running towards us.Realised that it's bb junior when she's close.Arg..so scary man!She should do something about her hair!Scary..haiz..shall go study now.Bye!

I'm sorry i broke my promise
I'm thinking of ya
Not missing..
Just thinking..


10:14 PM Tiring day!Reached school at 8.30am all because yuen ask me to be early.Then was slacking at Draco's song dedication booth which was playing loud music.Quite nice actually..woke me up.Spent the whole day in school and the only enjoyable moment was the charity jam.The students are all so talented.I can't play any music at all so i envy them so much.I love the performance especially Mdm Kelly Tan's.She's fantatic i tell ya.She wrote a song named "River" for srjc and it's super nice!I saved the lyrics in my phone but i can't remember the tune.Arg...aNgrY!After the charity jam,we went for lunch together with amy.Then have to go back to school for college day.That really pissed me off.First we were asked to go to Lt5 then we had to proceed to the hall.We were scanned first before we can be allowed to proceed to the hall.Wtf..super lame.Then the stupid hall was so freaking stuffy.Was perspiring throughout the whole event.Arg..then there's this guy who's sitting in front of yuen,he STINKS!Couldn't breathe properly at all.Stinky pig!Haiz..felt so happy once he walk away but he returned about 10 mins later smelling just as bad if not worse.Was trying to face the other side throughout.Haiz..hot and stuffy.Walked to the toilet and enjoyed the breeze!So windy outside the hall.Couldn't understand why they want to hold such an important event in the hall,can't we do it in Lt5 which is so nice and cooling?The organisers really have no brains man!
Have Big Walk tmr!Tired..have to sleep now.Shall complain again some other time..wakin up at 5 so that we can reach kallang at 7 sharp.Arg...i want my beauty sleep!


Recovering from the pain...
Didn't miss ya...
Standing tall again...


9:10 PM Hmm..a hazy day.The day went past in a daze and i guess nothing went into my thick head today.Heard about the just war theory during gp tutorial and lecture but i still don't know what the hell it is.Guess my heart is really not in school today.Yuen and grace nv come to school today...gary is still sick and karsten's presence was missed.The class seem to be getting smaller especially when there are days where people get sick and don't come to school.I'm drifting further and further away.
Looking forward to the holidays so that i can sit down and study.I mean real studying.Not just reading through notes so that i can answer whatever question that Mrs Ting throw at us without saying i don't know first.Haiz..reading notes is ok but it's super boring..i can only concentrate on reading notes when i'm studying with ena,g.p and yuen. Other than that,i can't even read a single page.So they are good motivation for me.Haiz..should get them out to study during the holidays.
Hmm...getting worried for Ms G.Don't know how she is as no clear information was given to us.Teachers aren't willing to talk about it i guess or am i not getting the infomation that i want.Really don't know and i want more news about Ms G.Miss her lots.
I think there's work that needs to be done but i can't remember what.Some online work i guess but i don't remember.Brains not working since yesterday night and there's no one online that i can talk to.Yuen and bb junior went clubbing so not online.G.p dunno doing what.I'm the only pathetic one online blabbering away in my blog.Couldn't understand the gp lecture today partly because i wasn't concentrating.Have to go read up on it later.Entrepreneur Day is tomorrow.Aquila is setting up a store where students can get to throw pies at other people.Hope to raise enough funds for ST.What is enough anyway?
Ohh..borrowed a novel from Edward today.It's about this autistic guy and his interactions with everyday life.The start of the book is a bit glory because a dog was killed by a garden fork.It was nailed to the ground by the fork and blood was everywhere.Ya and the guy has to deal with something like that..he couldn't understand.I couldn't understand what i wanted to say so i guess i should stop.
Haven't decide what time to go to school tomorrow.Don't feel like going to early because tomorrow is saturday.Haiz..but i want to go and play.The cheese cake from draco is quite good too but the price seem to be a bit on the steep side.Hmm...will see how much i want to eat tomorrow haha..I LOVE CHEESE CAKE!!

Ohh..something very funny happened.I think that bustfren thinks that i like cheryl-the one from NY bball.Haha..nothing of that sort k,she's just a very good fren of mine.Not very close but i love to disturb her whenever i see her.Haha..don't get the wrong idea!I'm no lesbo though i have 21 wives without counting those from my sec sch.Heehee...


If there were no words
No way to speak
I would still hear you
If there were no tears
No way to feel inside
I'd still feel for you

And even if the sun refused to shine
Even if romance ran out of rhyme
You would still have my heart until the end of time
You're all I need, my love, my Valentine

All of my life
I have been waiting for
All you give to me
You've opened my eyes
And showed me how to love unselfishly

I've dreamed of this a thousand times before
But in my dreams I couldn't love you more
I will give you my heart
Until the end of time...
You're all I need, my love, my Valentine

And even if the sun refused to shine
Even if romance ran out of rhyme
You would still have my heart until the end of time
'Cause all I need is you, my Valentine
You're all I need, my love, my Valentine




9:52 PM Hurt is all i feel
Once i heard the news..
Crying buckets of tears now
What else can i do?
Should have let go sooner
So i wouldn't be hurt
But i guess it's too late now
My heart's broken in two
How am i going to fix it
Will there still be time?
Who is going to fix it
I really don't know
Cos i can't do it myself
It hurts so bad
That i don't want to live
In this ugly world again


I couldn't believe it when i see it with my eyes
I couldn't believe it when i heard it with my ears
I couldn't believe or i don't want to believe
I really don't know

I guess i'm in too deep
Without knowing how to get out
Thought that i can if i really want to
But i guess it's just self delusion

Now that the delusion is gone
It's time to face up to reality
Face up to the hurt and the pain
So that i can stand up again

Hoping to look at you in the eyes
Without ever starting to cry
Hoping to talk to you
Without having to pick up my shattered heart

Maybe we can remain as friends
As we always say
Wonder if i can do it
No matter what we say

The pain is too real
My life is fading
Slowly but surely
I will stand up again


8:05 PM HCJC won the girls championship for bball finals today and SAJC won the guys game.Haiz..no.9 from HCJC girls won the most valuable player award.She really deserved it man..she's such a good player!Very impressed with her skills and everything. SAJC no.5 won the most valuable award for the guys game.Couldn't rmb what he did as i thought no.15 was the better player.But maybe it's because of the lack of height that the judges gave the award to him.Haha..being mean again.Anyway,saw charlene there and we all watch the game together.The sports hall was really crowded and noisy today.The banners of the 2 schools are really nice...maybe srbball should paint a new banner too.After the game,we went to macs for food together,charlene and bb junior can really click man..they are so lame!Oh..we saw NYJC bballers there too but too bad,cheryl wasn't there.
Wanted to search for prezzies but a bit no mood so we went home instead.Bought dear boys16 finally after like so many weeks!Can finally read it afterwards.Haiz...don't look forward to the weekends at all.Super busy and i can't study.Haiz..getting worried for this year's mid year.I don't wanna fail anything.But at this rate i'm going,i'm going to fail all my subjects.Yeah..that'll be a great wake up call!
Ohh..Mdm Kelly Tan's lesson is so interesting!Think it's because of her..she's so erm...funny i guess.The poem that she went thru today was about love and she really describes the complexities about love.Haiz..the tension between sprituality and physicality.Woo...super deep don't you think.Unless you have been in love,this will sound like greek to you.Haahaa..
Anybody wanna go to the musical?Tickets is priced at $12..i wanna go!

5:34 PM Was a bit later than usual this morning because my stupid brother was upset about something.Then i didn't go to the canteen as was my usual practice ever since i dunno when,miss talking to the gals early in the morning.So ya missed my early morning "feast".After that,received a msg from dear bb junior asking whether i'm in school.Haha..she miss me woo...
Having a bad temper during break and i was just screaming at yuen and g.p.Haiz..easily irritated and as bust fren said..i'm a bit too sensitive.Was a bit affected by one scene in "Killing fields"..this guy stepped on a mine and it just blew up,killing him and the kid he was carrying!How is one expected to react?Can't take it.
As usual,was suppose to study but i fell asleep again once i reached home.I slept on the floor with the fan blowing straight at me and didn't wake up till it's 5.Too hot to study so i'm just slacking around till it's cooler.Maybe i'll study when the weather is not so hot hee..give me some motivation please.Gp and lit paper 8 is next friday and i'm not even prepared for it yet!
Going to watch bball finals tomorrow.Yeah!Another time for a mini gathering.Hee..excited !!

I'm letting go..
This time i really am.

6:37 PM Spent a day out with my sec school frens..namely lian,bin,jac and meifang.Went to bin's house in the afternoon and played mahjong.I'm the only idiot who dunno the game and surprisingly,i won the first game hee... talk about beginers luck.Cut the cake when lian turned up and i fell asleep while the 4 of them played their favourite game of mahjong.
After that,we head out to town for dinner but sadly,meifang didn't go.Walked around town..was practically on scanning mode as soon as i arrived in town.Then,we walked from far east all the way to ps for dinner at thai express!Had a rather enjoyable day with the gals.

The weather is so f**king hot this few days!!!Can't even stand one period in the simmering classroom and i guess tempers flare easily..was always in the study area whenever there's break or free period.Can't stand the heat anymore.Couldn't sleep at all the night before.No air con and the fan just can't keep the heat away.Help!I'm going to melt in this heat!!
Came home early today hoping to study.Had a freaking headache once i reach home and took a nap.Couldn't do the econs essay at all because i'm dumb.Anyway.. was in a super good mood at the bus stop.Was jam there for a while because i was eating but i'm glad that i ate that bag of chips.Be it fattening or not hahaha..gay part and yuen shd understand.Hee :P
Hee..didn't realise that so many people miss me on sat.Haha sorry to disappoint you gals.Shall make up to you all someday.
Going for bball finals on wed!Bustfren is going too..hooray finally she can join us...but i think some gals cannot make it this wed.Sian... a bit sad la but too bad.Entrepreneurs' Day this sat cum college day.Sun..Big Walk..another weekend gone.
Think i've been neglecting my class..esp bustfren.Sorryy...

I'm learning to let go
But it'll be super hard
Give me some time
So that the pain will fade..



10:10 AM Hmm...had econs lecture at 5pm yesterday and we end school at 3pm.Spent 2 hours at amk central waiting for yuen and g.p to cut their hair.BB junior went with us too.Talk a lot as usual and crap.It's girls talk all the way till we came back to school for econs lecture.After lecture,we went to the hall and check out the aerobics marathon.Super funny and we saw jocelyn dancing.Haha..we laugh like crazy!
Didn't go and watch the bball semi-finals today becos i came home quite late yesterday.Mum will sure nag if i step out of the house again today so i better stay home and study.Meeting Ah Ma and bin they all for lunch tmr to celebrate Ah Ma's birthday.Looking forward to it!
Feel like going back to school to collect my stuffs that i'm suppose to bring home eons before so that they don't clutter up my locker.Looking at the stupid weather,i really don't feel like going to school at all.Shall remember to bring them back on mon then...bag will be heavy and we'll have training!!

A sinking feeling i have today
Because i can't see you anywhere
Missing your smile and your crap
Missing the floating feeling that i have
Missing,missing and just missing
Missing myself in missing you.

9:01 PM Had 2 hours for lunch today so me,amy,gp and ena went out to heartland for lunch.They ate at delifrance but i didn't eat anything there.Was crapping a lot in delifrance and amy was behaving a bit crazily..think it was due to her lost anklet.It's suppose to be a love token from Mr twin.Haha..Mr twin!Had fun talking to them and am glad of amy's unlimited support!
Didn't do pe today so i was wondering why i stayed back in school until pe time.Hee..maybe i just wanna be there with my frens.Talk to yuen,gp,ena during pe time.Haiz..we talk a lot everyday.After that,i stayed and waited with bb junior till it's time for her to go for some gp movie watching.Talked to her about what happened in class and lots of other stuffs,a bit of crap too because she's full of it.Then went to look at the jc1 bballers.They are super sucky lor!!!!At 5pm,can still see them sitting at the study area dunno doing what.Then at 5.20pm some of them are still in the toilet chatting away..nobody to collect the balls and the water jug until angelina went to take the stuffs.Haiz...then b4 we went home,JB just came and she was still eating fries and showing off that she's eating.Those who are suppose to run stopped and talked to her and ate the fries too!What is wrong with them..can't they understand that they shd be punctual for trainings??We really felt like screaming at them but decided that we shall do it all on mon where the capt and vice capt are around.More power like that i think.More impression that they'll get that bball is no slacking cca lorz..haiz...stupid jc1s.
Anyway,was really upset with the class.Nearly cried when i talked to bb junior abt it.Hope she didn't notice it.. Haiz...dun really want to talk abt it here.Shall tell my dear bball gals tmr i guess.Upset..upset..y am i so easily upset this few days?Pissed off easily.Talking only abt bball and more bball and bball gals.I wanna get away from all these shit and juz concentrate on what i shd be doing now.HELPZZZz

Ok i think this sat is the semi-finals for bball gals and boys at ccab.Anyone wants to go down?Next wed is the finals at toa payoh..it's HCJC vs SAJC if i'm not wrong.Think i'll probably pop by if i'm free next wed.(More bball stuff again)

5:31 PM Hmm..went to sch today.Had lunch with bball gals at the coffeshop outside sch.Love them to bits man!Almost everybody went except for Carmen,Renee and Yansze.Took pics again today.Maybe we should be in a cca where we can take photos everyday.Haha..now my most precious possession is my photo album.All on the bball gals!
Heard that Yuen and Yanhui studying at Bishan Mac now but Yanhui is sleeping away...diaoz..g.p better study hard k.
Now i must go do my geo assignment to hand up tomorrow.It's super tiring la..need a lot of information before i can write out a proper essay.Hope it's ok if i juz get a bit here and there.
I love Wednesdays!Hee..suppose to meet Gary they all for lunch b4 the bball gals but then i'm too lazy to walk out alone so there,it explains my absence.Hee...i'm a bad gal.
Ok i'm cool about everything...shall not bother about the rumours anymore.It's not my fault anyway..shall forgive and forget!Hope this doesn't reach "her" ears...super embarrassing man!How to face "her" haiz...stupid rumours kill innocent people.And she's totally innocent and i dunno how she gets involved in this.Too much imagination and free time to use is it?Arg...whatever!
I'm cure of my bball withdrawal syndrome Yeah...no more attitude filled days!
Love bb junior to death...the poem is so full of emotion that i can't but feel sad for her too.Dun worry gal,u have been thru so much with us i'm sure u can handle a bunch of stupid attitude and sucky gals.We'll be there next mon to give them a gd dressing down.No matter what,u'll still be our bb junior!Can always come and find us and talk and crap with us like before.We'll never desert u!Can always msg us too.Hee...the best bb junior ever!


4:27 PM Didn't go to school today because i have a drug allergy...having puffy eyes now and the world seem to be smaller today.Trying to do my lit essay but am too temptated by the computer.Shall finish my lit essay later then.Hee...talking to bb junior's sister online now,she's as lame as bb junior i think.I guess it runs in the family.
Hiaz..i'm physically at home but mentally i'm in school.That's what my mother complained today.Think the bball gals are taking their big walk photos now..so sad that i'm not with them.I'm reading uo on Adolf Hitler now for gp tomorrow.Darn..i'm suppose to do my gp presentation today and yet i'm not in school haiz...i'm not skipping school because of this k cos i have already done it last night.Did it till about 11 plus..now i think it's a waste of time cos i could have done it today.
A lot of work to be done but there's so little time.

10:51 PM Hmm...realise that people are not who they seem there are. The silent dogs are the ones that bite the hardest.
Went out for lunch with my girls again!Love them to bits man!They are always so supportive and nice to me,unlike those who bitch about you behind ur back.Please...if u have any doubts clarify first before u start talking k.You never know how hurting it is to know that the person that you think will not hurt you is the one who hurt you the most.I'm sorry Gary...i thought u were the one.Guess i'm so wrong!
Let this stop and not go on any further k..i dun wanna lose a friend whom i really really like.
Sorry for the attitude that i've been treating you.Guess i took things for granted sometimes.Pardon my wierd behaviour i'm still trying to adapt to changes in my life.Missing something so important to me is a huge change indeed.Maybe i guess i just couldn't let go of it.
Whatever...it's all in the past now and i'll try to get over it.Think whatever you people want and i don't care anymore.
Even my bust fren have doubts..guess it's not meant to be then.Sorry...

Torn and tattered!!

I like the new blogger...it's so refreshing!!


10:19 PM What is wrong with the tagboard?It always reads temporary error.If it is temporary,why is it that it lasted for 2 days already?Sian..
Woke up at 6.45am today and Yuen gave me a morning call at 7am.Lucky she did or i'll just be late today.Suppose to meet them at Junction 8 at 8am today and i went to the bus stop at 7.35am and waited like hell!The stupid bus came like 15mins later and Yuen,Grace and Jasmine were all on board.Then we crap all the way to Bishan la if not i'll just fall asleep on the bus.Ohh...Joan and Jocelyn were not late today.They live so far away lor..late also nv mind la.After meeting all the gals,we went to Ya Kun for breakfast before going to Bishan Park1.Stupid bb junior brought us to the wrong place and we have to take a cab down because we are late already.Had lots of fun during our walk there.Ena and Jocelyn like the dogs they see while walking and Jocelyn was like saying the baby dog so cute.Diao...ena keep touching the dogs and later i forgot and went to touch her hands..erm..then forget to wash hands before having brunch. After the talk,we went for brunch then went Macs to study.Stayed till about 4 plus then went to meet parents to go Marina.Go there to fly kite lor how sian.Having a major headache so was quite quiet during the trip to Marina.Then i just sat down on the ground with the kite and stone while it's in the air.Ya..quite boring la but i like to have some peace and quiet all by myself sometime.Nobody came to disturb me and i just sat there till it's time to go.Then had dinner b4 coming home.Suppose to be doing my gp presentation for tmr but i'm super tired already.Should go to sleep before i get any sicker..having a bad throat and headache.Dun feel like going to school tmr..but i have to.Haiz...

I'm so in love with Jay!!

9:28 PM Went out with Deanna,Ena,Yuenxin,Yanhui,Grace and Renee again.Went to Nyjc for their homecoming day.Saw a lot of familiar people..Marcus from a1,Cassandra and the Ny BBall gals team.Saw connie,cheryl and michelle from NY.Connie and Cheryl still as corny and lame as ever.Really miss having them in the team.After that,we went to Renee's house for a while before going out for lunch and then to Deanna's house.Super fun today cos i finally finish watching the NY vs SR match.The last time i watch,the battery is low so nv finish watching the match.Then we saw the video of the sports meet.Stupid Deanna took me with my sian look yesterday.It's was funny la and we were laughing at it.Haha...super fun.Think i'm going to be "cured" soon.Seeing them 7 days a week is good therapy man!Hmm..i said 7 days because i'm going to see them again tomorrow.We have to go for a Big Walk briefing at Bishan Park tomorrow.Then after that we'll go study somewhere.Hee...
Aquilla won the 1st for cheerleading yesterday.They did very well and the cheer went on smoothly without any technical errors.Nice one Aquilla..
So after sports meet,we went to play bball for a while.Quite fun la but suddenly got moody again.So went home and slack.Didn't do work at all and woke up early this morning to do something b4 meeting the girls!Feelin satisfied that i did something.Went out till 6 plus this evening..had dinner with mum and then slack till now.
Shall finish my work by tmr or i'll suffer a lot on mon.Haiz...shall go to slp soon cos tmr muz wake up early to meet my dears...Joan and Jocelyn meeting us too!

9:17 PM Ok..sports day today.Still doing the boring job of pulling the string.If u dun understand what i mean,then forget it.Anyway was standing at the finishing line and lookin at all the athletes running.They are very fast man!Especially the guys.
Really feel very bad from moving away from the class.Felt really sad when Gary said that i don't know anything that happen to the class and that i'm only alive when it's break time or lunch time.Ok i admit i wasn't "in" class most of the time and i really wonder why.Felt so alive only when i'm with the bball gals.Hmm...what am i suppose to do?Ok suddenly thought of something that Gary said.."if you dun wan anyone to know about your secret,then dun tell anyone.If you yourself let the cat out of the bag,what makes you think that other people will not let the cat out of the bag too?"Wise words indeed!So i'm not going to tell anyone something that i think it's important to keep.Let me indulge in myself this week,i'll let go once the week end.Stop Jamming around le.
Must be with the class more...it's just a few months more before we are seperated.I hate the feeling of saying good bye.Really wish to concentrate on stuff that is happening in the class but somehow,i just can't bring myself to pay attention to anything.My eyes are always looking around for that familiar figure and feel so lost when i don't see it.But once i see it,i'm like so happy!Hmm...must seriously forget about this.Like i say..by the end of this week,everything will be fine(i hope)
Maybe going out with yuen they all tmr.Must see my mood first.Haiz...
Lost and floating around
Lookin for an anchor that will hold me to the ground
Hope that i can find once soon
Or i'll be lost in this forever

Somebody please give me the motivation to study!Sorry for being so moody this few days.Will try to cheer up soon so please bear with my attitude.Sorry class..love you guys!

7:15 PM Feeling very bad this week..keep having mood swings.Edward diagnose me with basketball withdrawal symdrom(think it's spelt like that) and i think that i am really suffering from that.Was with bball girls during break and lunch this few days and kinda felt left out from the class.What to do,i'm always not with them during break and lunch.Hmm...hope my "illness" will end soon.Haiz...shall concentrate more on my studies instead of other things!
Anyway,was having my gp test today outside the class when i saw my idol..she said that i lost weight lor haha...so happy!Keep seeing Jam this few days haha so happy...muz not be so obvious.Shall forget abt Jam by this week,muz recover from my "illness" by this week too.Next week shall be the time where i concentrate on my studies!
Played badminton with idol today...she's gd la.She didn't even feel tired after the game and went on for her cheerleading practice.Haiz..wish i got that much stamina.

8:41 PM Hmm..had heats today again!My job is to be there to tell the runners how many rounds they have left.Super boring job and after 1 hour,i had nothing left to do so i went to look for yuenxin and company.Saw jasmine threw the discus woo...really think she's very good... so suai!After the heats,came home and at the park there,there's this mad man who started to call me.Wah..so scared lor and i walked away quickly.Kept looking over my shoulders to see if he was following me and decide that i must run as fast as my fat legs can carry me if he's following.Hee..luckily he's not.Phew..
An uneventful day overall..cept that i went to amy's house..know some stuff and went home wif grace,yuen and yanhui.

11:44 AM Ohh...i'm so glad that i can finally get online though my stupid printer is still down with "flu" or something!
Yeah...went out with Yuenxin,Jasmine,Deanna,Ena,Grace and Yanhui yesterday.Really really enjoyed myself yesterday.Shared a lot of stuff among us hee...saw people that we wanna see in town and i was practically floating all the way home. Hee...really really happy.Luckily i decided to meet them after meeting JY in sch or i'll just miss the fun yesterday.Took some photos yesterday.Yuen!! Must remember to develop k!Bought presents for Ms Rivera because it's her birthday today.Saw someone yesterday hee...Oh..saw Joan,Liyen and lots of other people in town yesterday..maybe the whole of Sr population is in town la.

Hmm....tmr is monday already.No more trainings on monday onwards for us. Really sad and feeling rather empty.Maybe that's why i wanted to be an official for the heats,to stay in school longer and maybe i wun feel so bad.Going to miss the girls and bball a lot!Those good and bad times we shared.Those tough trainings that leave us panting like hell and scoldings from our dear Ms Rivera.Those attitude filled days haha..going to miss our dear little junior who's always bullied by us.Our captain and vice captain.Those days where we can see each other during training,walking to the bus stop together.Hiaz...dun think there'll be such chances now.A sense of loneliness and emptiness is enveloping me now.